In My Own World

很有感触的一首歌。。。

2011-02-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

望著天空, 愛是否活在童話裏頭?? 小王子說有些事流浪過才會懂..
原來每顆心都有個洞, 找不到真愛會一直寂寞..擦乾眼淚一個人漂流在這宇宙.. 小王子說愛一定開在某個角落.. 路上相愛的人那麼多, 我會幸福嗎?? 在什麼時候??
我但願有一個人在等我, 在屬於我的612星球.. 好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走.. 不快樂, 至少要有夢.. 一定會有一個人在等我, 無條件擁抱著我的所有.. 相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘?? 花別謝太快, 請你等等我................

Credit to JXXX!!

2011's 1ST & NEW POST!!

2011-02-05T22:00:00.006+08:00

WOW!!

2011 my 1st post, like FINALLY!!

Another year...

Don't hav much time to blog.. or rather juz too lazy to blog..
Juz the same old things again and again...
Plus don't even have enuff time to rest due to WORK, whr got time for blog??

New year...
Means I had been in this working life for almost 1 year!! That's so FAST!!! 1 year juz past like that... Experienced alot.. experienced more than what i could experience in school... Saw the heart-warming sides & of cuz the UGLY sides mainly... Like what many ppl said, this world is UGLY.. True True, seen alot of FAKES, ACTS, DOUBLE-MASKED ppl... What i did was keep complaining, to vent out my frustrations... That's how i relieve my stress & unhappyiness... but after so much of complainings, somehow, i got tired of all these, & became speechless... Really sick of all these... Juz let them be... I'm juz waiting for a right time to leave.. leave all this NONSENSES.

CHINESE NEW YEAR...
Juz the same old things again.. but this year it's rather boring + short...
Don't really hav the CNY mood... 1 word : SIANX!!
Guess it's normal, cuz when 1 person every year keep doing the same thing again & again, it become meaningless...

My 21ST BIRTHDAY...
After CNY, will be my 21ST BIRTHDAY!! Actually i don't feel much abt it..
Mayb cuz my parents will be going back to msia few days b4 my birthday & come back on my Birthday.. make me abit sianx half... plus the chalet @ west side alrdy booked.. = sianx 3/4 ... 21ST BIRTHDAY, most of the ppl will make a BIG celebration.. but my mum don't want any party or chalet-ing kind of celebration... so means what?? Means got NTH...!! SIANS TOTALLY!! Mayb that's why i don't have much mood abt my 21ST BIRTHDAY!! But 2 things i m happy abt is; 1) i got my 1st diamond necklace for my 21st birthday! Really sparkling, really nice!! I really like it!! =) Now i know why diamonds r girls' BEST fren!! Cuz they made girls smile!! 2) I purposely took 3 days off from WORK during my Birthday, so happy!! Cuz i don't need to do things i dislike, don't need to see those ppl whom i dislike + don't need to serve those IDIOTIC customers!! SHIOK ah........!!

Next big thing is.... my company's D&D!!
1 more month to go........
To be continue..........

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2010-11-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

Too lazy/busy to log in here to blog....

... too many things happened...

...duno whr to start from.......

[Work] : Same OLD things..

[Life] : something NEW ; but still not what I rly wanted... will thr be a day whr I can get what I rly wish for???

Hope thr's MIRACLE for my wish to come true....

PRISON life

2010-07-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

Disappeared for almost 2 wks....

So MANY things to blog abt... But just too lazy to login to blog...

1st thing 1st...
Life @ the new environment.....
1st few days was ok... until..... that mr C appear...
He is the manager over thr.. aka the senior optom...
Heard alot of ppl say he is gd...
Yet I got loads of nonsense from him...ZZZ
I TOT he is a gd person too at 1st.. but after few days... I dun tink so anymore...
At 1st.. he asked me to check his eyes..cant use instrument to get his eye power...start from 0 ... I was SO STRESS.... cuz 1st time do on a so high position de SENIOR... scary~~ I was like stuck here stuck there.. mind blank... hands and legs freezed... at the end of it.. of cuz I did alot of wrong things... he told me whr I wrong..n wan me to improve.. ok, this is fine to me.. at least I learnt abt my bad pts..n improve from thr... BUT the following days... rly made me IRRITATED TO MAX!!!!! ZZZZZZZ Once, lunch time, i go out buy lunch.. but he called my hp.. n ask me come bck to see how he do eyetest...-.-||| So many times I in the shop.. when I nth to do n he got customers.. he din asked me to sit in to c him do.. y must he choose my lunchtime..??? ZZZ like so purposely lo... Use brain to think la.. when ppl hungry.. n force ppl to sit in to c how u do.. u think ppl will learn anything when she is so HUNGRY?? No mood la... ZZZ Duno isit cuz I always go out meet my fren to dao bao lunch.. n dined in ONCE.. tats y he not happy..so wan to do this to me.. but if u not happy just tell me la..den i wont meet my fren wad... n pls.. i only go out during lunchtime.. dinnertime i stay in shop..cuz i dun eat dinner.. so wads so BIG deal if i go out for lunch?? The same day, evening..i just go out n help the staffs buy food..den he oso call me to ask me come back to do eyetest for customer..ZZZZ y cant he do??? He so free.. y must let me do..when i m still outside?? ZZZ Somemore.. he kip test me qns.. n when i ans.. he kip on pin point me...every ans i say.. he will say WRONG... ZZZ yet when i say the same ans to the other optom.. tat optom din even say it's wrong.. ZZZ, see, HE rly just wan to takan me...ZZZZ even the other optom oso say he rly duno y HE ask me such senseless qns...
ZZZZ.. Duno y all SENIOR staffs like to bully newbies... Isit they kip their feelings for too long? Thats y become so BIAN TAI? tinks tat bullying us.. can let them feel better?? CRAZY OLD PEOPLES~!!

This place is just like a PRISON.. I dun hav FREEDOM.. wan go out breathe air oso cant...ZZZZZ!!!! A very BIG shop... under my observation, it's so COLD there... the ppl there r wearing masks to work everyday... all so surface... as compared to my own place.. I cant find the warm-ness in this new place...I dun c the teamwork in this new place... everyone there r just like a working robot wif no feelings... even when they talk to each other... can c tat they r just talking for the sake of talking...-.-" like tat muswhile dun talk rite? Really don't understand these adults... Compared to my own place... it's more like a family.. more caring to each other... feel warmer... if exclude tat LA den would b the BEST workplace liao...

7 more days before I leave this PRISON-like place... yet I heard this mr C.. behind my back, give bad comments abt me to the operation manager... ZZZ n wan me to extend 1 more mth at thr...ZZZZZZZZZZ!!! Rly THANKS to him la.. duno isit he is such an honest person.. who cant say white lies..or he just wan to pick on me.. n wan me stay 1 more mth to torture me...he tell the BIG MOUTH operation manager.. n just 1 day time..I got this news from my fren from the other branch..tat this BIG MOUTH go n tell her manager abt me... ZZZ see la.. like tat whole company noes abt me liao la.. RLY THANKS LO YOU TWO!!!
Luckily I asked my own manager abt this.. n he say I DUN NID TO STAY!!! AUG come back to own branch...HENG~!! If not i rly can SUFFOCATE n DIE~~~~

7 days to go....
I so hope tml is AUG~!!!!

IM SUPER BLURRRRRRRRRR~~~

2010-07-03T23:51:00.008+08:00

2nd day of work only..
Jiu lost my...... WALLET!!!!!!
See how careless am I??
Come back from toilet only..then gone...
Went back to check again.. it's no whr to b found...
ZZZ
Inside have my I/C, EZlink, Optom card, Waston card n abt $20+ of cash..
Fortunately, I din bring my NETS card today.. if not nid to replace...
1ST time lose my wallet... so LOST!!! X.X!!!
Luckily one of the staff, so-called my teacher, who guide me thr.. helped me out..
He really very nice... very si xin.. help me find the nearest police station for me to go report for the lost..then still called up the police station to asked which exit to exit.. n ask if need to bring along any thing... still lend me $58 for me to take MRT.. when I come back, he still helped my checked the immigrant center that need to wait 14days then can go report to them...
So nice of him sia......

No wonder so many ppl say he is a very good person...
So lucky to have him to guide me for this 1 mth...

Just 2 days only, I learnt so much from him...
He taught me so many things... some I not that clear on n some that i totally duno.. after he explain,I become clearer... He is like helping me to complete my cases.. when I shd be the 1 more eager..but he more eager than me, more enthu in finding the cases for me... so bu hao yi si lo....
I duno so many things.. some even the basic... but he still so patience to teach me everything again... duno will he say to himself this; waaa this girl so lousy 1 ..everything duno... but true enuff la.. I really alot of things duno lehhhhhhhhhhh...

I am quite lucky that I always met such kind n good people.. so many actually.. so many helped me and taught me when I have so many things duno... these people r so-called "KUI RENs" , last time in sch, now in workplace.. But of cuz in life, surely thr r oso some BAD people who came into my life n make my life so difficult...yet this is also the time I greatly appreciate the presence of these "KUI RENs" in my life... if not them, my route won't be so smooth n clear...

To all my "KUI RENs":

THANKS SO MUCH =)

Learnt alot alot.........

2010-07-01T23:11:00.005+08:00

Been almost 1 wk + since I blog...

This 1 wk +, really learnt alot...

Learnt to talk LOUDER...

Learnt to talk MORE when doing sales aka UP-SALES...

Learnt to be more confident by 3%...

Learnt how to overcome very BUSY; MESSY situation. Taught 3 1st-time contact lens wearer tgt on the spot.. when actually there r 6 in total.. but we rejected 3 due to their high astig... 1st time experience such hectic moments..where I somehow need to split into 3 to monitor them.. n oso 1st time feel that WE OPTOMS R HIGHLY IMPORTANT!!! =P

But 1 thing bad that I shd change is my BAD TEMPER.. Have a very BAD TEMPER.. especially when I am HUNGRY!!! I m ardy a person who don't really hav patience.. when comes to hunger, I will lose my total patience.. left 0% patience.. so don't ask me wait for u when it comes to food.. 30mins max.. regardless u r my superior, manager, or wadever shit.. I will be very bad mood n give black face when I am hungry.. Just did it today to my colleagues... Actually we planned to buy pizza today for lunch.. but need to wait for 1 staff to come in then we go order... but waited for like more than 2hrs ardy..still haven reach...ZZZ.. then nvm.. this staff's husband called to find his wife.. but i say not here yet... then he at there KPKB.. so rude.. then keep calling non-stop..KNS!!! Wife haven come only, need to at thr make big noise meh...so hungry ardy still KANA scolding for no reason... ANGRY sia... then after that..I BTH.. I just tell my 2nd incharge that i don't wan wait liao..I just go buy my own lunch... even my 2nd incharge also scared when I angry..still wan return me my lunch $$$... but in the end.. I din accept..cuz also not her wrong..I am not so unreasonable.. I am just too hungry until angry nia..is I ownself don't wan wait 1... y need her to pay.. so not right wad if take her $$$... but in the end..the late staff say sorry to me.. I told her not I angry with her ..I hungry thats y bad mood... My this bad mood must change.. if not everyone scared of me...HAHAHA!!! even 2nd incharge oso scared..POWER right me?? =P but cant help it la... when hungry..who's mood is GD 1, u tell me la...
more pissed is when u eating half way got customers come in just browsing.. n still browse so long then go.. SBDL this kind of customer... ZZZZ...Make me cannot enjoy my lunch sia..

So fast I had already worked in this company for 1mth.. Learnt so much.. as compared to that MrEyewear.. MrEyewear = learn NTH 1.. only learn how to LIE nia.. the rest all bullshits... working now this company.. although oso have some things/person which I don't like..but at least won't so PEK CEK when working... tml going new place for training.. will have alot of things for me to learn... hope I can learn as many as I can..n bring back to my branch... don't let my manager down.. other gd thing is don't need to face THAT person for 1 mth.. don't need take the same LRT with her... hopefully when I come back.. she will be GONE!!!! Then my life will be happier & easier...!! =)

"You small kid la..."

2010-06-19T23:21:00.003+08:00

Quoted by Prem, saying to me few days ago : " You small kid la..."

Indeed!! This is so true... I'm rly juz a small kid... Whenever I met problems, all i noe is CRY...-.-||| like a kid right?? So childish right?? So big ardy still cry so easily... Can't help it.. that's me.. this is how I release my unhappiness; not later but ON THE SPOT...

Just like that Oakley frame scratched case... after the customers went away, I start crying ardy.. not cuz my manager scold me leh.. he din even scold me.. but i just cry lik tis... Inside, i felt very bad n sorry..cuz i create such a BIG trouble for him.. n got scolding from customer becuz of me... n he din even scold me.. still tell me dun worry, he will handle everything for me... still tell me dun cry..but the more he tell me not to cry.. the more i cry...X.X Luckily the case is CLOSED.. my manager went down to the Oakley factory to see if can change the defective frame.. n so lucky..the person change for him without a word.. HENG sia... i dun nid to pay for the frame.. n that customer came back to collect back the frame n din scold anymore.. Finally, case CLOSED!! Really need to thank my manager..

Sometimes rly wish that I nv grow up.. always be a small kid.. dun need care so much... the main thing is to be HAPPY everyday.... how i wish............

BAD day

2010-06-13T23:44:00.003+08:00

Today got scolding from customers...

Come in ask me help them screw their frame..

But after i screw finish.. they saw a scratch inside the frame, near to screw there.. den they claim that is i make the scratch when screwing...

Part of it is oso my wrong.. i din see properly if there is any scratch b4 i screw.. n din inform them tat if anything happen, we wont b liable.. instead i juz happily go screw the screw.. tot is an easy case... But in the end.. end up such BIG case...ZZZ

Just 1 scratch inside.. they make so big noise... say wan to complain to our company head if things can't be settle.. very rude.. say i duno say duno la.. anyhow screw...ok lo..say me nvm..cuz i m wrong.. but they oso scold my manager... thats the part i feel very bad... :( my manager did nth n still get scolding... in the end..my manager help me settle the case.. he say he will help me settle..

Told my parents..they say..this customer surely is come to find problem 1.. they act say need screw..but actually is ardy defect..den c me so new..so ask me do.. den make the case BIG..so tat they can get compensation.. cuz oso not make from us de..is from other optical shop..y nv go bck thr do... y come to here.. they tink they LOUD, they win.. KNS !!!!!!

Learn a BIG lesson from this.. 1st: Dun care 3 7 21, juz TALK LOUD.. TALK LOUD ppl wont ride on ur head n bully u... talk soft tink I easy to bully..GND LA~~ TMD!!
2nd: Check carefully b4 handling wif any adjustment.. b it juz fixing a small screw... 3rd: Always say beforehand that we wont b liable for any breakage when adjusting..

Anyway..if u so smart.. dun come to optical shop for adjustment la.. juz fix it urself la... we giving u FREE service.. still make so much noise... It's best that optical shop dun do any adjustment.. waste time only.. can't even earn any $$.. Sometimes when shop so busy.. still nid to handle all this CRAPS...Tink shld come out wif this policy : Any goods sold .. in the event of spoil, change shape, screw drop, there wont be any fixing.. only way to solve is to BUY NEW SPECTS FULLSTOP!

Make me want to scold bad words to these kind of CUSTOMER.. think we optoms r ur slave/ servant/ saleperson?? PLS!!! We spent so much $$$ n 3 yrs of study .. our job is actually check ur FUCKED UP eyes n recommend contact lenses to U.. n not do these KNS jobs... OK!

ZZZ

Terrible HEADACHE!!!

2010-06-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

Having terrible HEADACHE now~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

Think is cuz 1wk+ work.. without rest...

Really so TIRED...

This headache make me want to vomit!!!

@.@

:(

My 1ST PAY!!!

2010-05-31T23:28:00.003+08:00

WOOTS!!!

Finally left THAT place forever...!!!
Although felt abit sad.. cuz the staffs ( exclude that 2 monsters ) there all treat me so gd... abit bu she de...

He, now i can call him my EX-boss... at the very LAST min before close shop den give me my pay!!! SO HAPPY!!! Cuz got my 1st pay in CASH!!! =D My 1st time getting such big stack of $$$, until my wallet cant close sia...HAHAHA!!!! Now den realized that all these $$$ not so easy to earn.. need spent 1 full day, 11hrs of work everyday.. only 1 or 2 off days per week...just to get the $$$... sometimes need see those CRAZY customers' face... Still need to smile to serve them, cannot rude back...not that easy sia.. Tiring...X.X
Now noe that $$$ is not that easy to earn.. Every $$$ I spend now... I must think carefully.. use it wisely.. not that I will become so NIAO like tat 2 monsters... but i will only spend on things that i tink is more worth...i wont spend on things tat i dun like or hav not much interest in... tink it's normal la..who will spend on something that u dun even like la... -.- But 1 thing for sure is that, i will spent most of my $$$ for my family without 2nd thought... Now family comes 1st!!! =)

TML my 1st day at Capitol!!!
New beginning, new environment, new ppl!!!
Hope tml is a good start~

SO TIREDDDDDDDD

2010-05-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

See la, wad a "GOOD" boss i had sia...

Shuang shuang jiu take away my working day..give me off..den when short of ppl den take away my off day n ask me work...DAMN "GOOD" rite him... juz cuz 1 staff suddenly got sth on tat day.. so cant come work.. tats y ask me go work...-.-|||

Walau, like tat means I no rest.. work STRAIGHT till my 1st in Capitol!!!!!!!
This oso means i will work 1wk + until i get a off day!!! @.@!!!
TSK, SUPER CRAZY!!!
I dun wan to be WORKaholic hor...
Already so TIRED this 2 days of work.. how can last till 1 wk +???
REALLY BIG THANKS TO HIM lo!!!
Such a NICE boss i ever met..............

I nv make ur life difficult hor..
Better dun play any stunt during my LAST day of work...
I juz wan my PAY .... AND LEAVE!!!!

GRADUATED!!

2010-05-19T23:28:00.003+08:00

Finally GRADUATED!!!!!!!!!

So fast, 3yrs just past like that!!

GOOD-BYE SP; HELLO WORK-LIFE!!!

X.X!!!

Feel so good going back..seeing so many familiar faces...

Friends...

Chers....

How I wish, I could re-wind this 3 yrs...

Go back to SCHOOL-LIFE...

SCHOOL is still the BEST!!!

But if re-wind again, I'll not choose this course..
Know the misery of this course already.. don't wan to regret anymore...

Can't look back anymore... since chose this path already.. must continue on...
Until the path is complete, as in complete the license... then it will be time to change path.................

TML!!!

2010-05-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

TML is my Graduation Ceremony Day!!

Been dieting many days just for this day!!! XD

1 day only eat 2 meals.. skip dinner everyday.. =XXX

Hope when I take pics that time will look nice nice, won't look so FAT!!

TML TML TML!!!!

SAVE ME OUT OF HERE!!

2010-05-11T23:29:00.006+08:00

WA PIANG eh..this person is rly NOT EASY to deal with!!!

I tot my mum's method can win this battle, BUT seems like it's getting worse..!!

Today evening told tat fox boss say i wan to quit.. say only can work till this mth 15th.. he still wan me work until 20th june..-.-|| but i insist only can this mth 15th... den he say ok.. I tot case closed.. tot i give him de excuse worked.. Felt so relieved after saying out tat i wan to QUIT...but in the end.. the case become more n more complicated...

After work.. he ask me go sit down to have a talk with him..-.- my heart OS was saying..Oh no!! the case is not over yet... he rly is a DAMN CUNNING FOX who always change his words...ZZZ.. 1st he says.. " Y u applied uni, in the 1st plce din inform me..? I felt being cheated... U shd hav tell me so tat I can arrange the schedule in time.." YAYA wadever u say is all right la... Wads more over is tat he wans me to show him proof tat i rly goin to study...ZZZ the enrollment letter...ZZZ WTF la..the night b4, my mum say if he asked for proof.. juz tell him it's confidential.. how can anyhow let ppl c.. WTH ..he rly asked me to show him... SHIT U!! So personal things.. U GOT WAD RIGHT TO C? U R MY WHO??! IDIOT!!! When i told him it's confidential..he still can reply: " Wad confidential.. how com confidential leh ?" ZZZZ KNN! Kept telling me say; We muz hav xin yong.. mus have truefulness, so tat we can go further...ALL BULLSHITS!!! Tell me abt how trueful his daughter is.. tell for wad shit.. i m not interested! Still say wad i shd work for him until nxt mth... den i BTH i shoot bck him say..: I M ONLY PROHABTION, i anytime, within 24hrs can juz QUIT..den he still can reply say..: we dun folo this kind of law 1...WAD BULLSHITS r u talking... DUN folo law.. u tink u r KING? hav ur own law?? Still dare to say: Im sure those staffs who leave likes me... Pls lo..if they likes u..will they leave u 1 by 1?? How stupid can u b?? Every staffs behind u talks abt ur BAD PTS... u tink they like u??! R u crazy?? Still say: i m sure i m not those kind of boss who is bossy .. pls lo.. ur WIFE is such a person lo.. which make me more firm to QUIT!! He rly tinks tat he very wei da... say wad: the 1st 2 days of may is he GRANT me 1.. he let me rest... say wad if i labour day tat time not feeling well..can rest.. still ask me understand wat he saying? i juz shake my head..den he speechless n ans..: u dun understand this de ...-.- LAME SHIT! kip tell me to b truthful.. if dun like this plce can juz tell him.. say wad he treats me like his daughter.. if i say the truth, i tink he will not let me quit tat easily... but the more i listen to wad he say..the more i feel like saying out the truth..n tell him str8 to his face abt how FAILURE he actually is.. I rly nid to tink clearly b4 i action... if not i will leave black names in this line... ZZZ

Waliao.. so easy to get IN ..but when wan get OUT of this... SO DIFFICULT!!! TRAPPED!! Jeff, y intro me????? =X Kana stucked.. duno wad to do now... How can i beat this DAMN CUNNING FOX??? Im juz a simple girl.. n i dun like to cheat ppl.. Now nid to kip saying so many lies... it's juz not me.. Once u start with a lie.. u will nid to come out MORE lies to cover ur 1st lie... this is so TIRING!!!! I HATE to do this!! but if i juz state the truth bluntly.. i might nid to suffer... =(
HATE ALL THESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SBSBSBSBSBSBDL!!!

2010-05-10T23:19:00.003+08:00

TODAY i almost want to juz burp out :" I WANNA QUIT " & juz leave the plce..

SIBEI DULANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Especially when tat stupid lady boss is in the shop...

DAMN IRRITATED!!

Morning juz arrive the shop only..jiu kip ask me do things NON-STOP!! Juz finished my daily routine:clean display, clean the instrument ( even thou the boss din ask me to do so, but it's a gd habit to do.. at least more hygiene), change water.. The boss jiu ask me go swipe floor.. swipe carpet floor with such a lousy broom.. -.-|| how to swipe la..u tell me.. all the dust all stuck on top of the carpet.. the boss still can tell me to use crosstape to stick all the dust up...ZZZ so u expect me to do this for the WHOLE shop la? u think I am ur cleaner huh? this I can still dun care... den after do finish this.. he jiu ask me go clean the outside display.. which hav SIX sectors!!! ZZZ & nobody come help me.. unlike Capitol..everybody helped out tgt.. even the manager..but here... wad..they BOSS + LADY BOSS, cant do this kind of thing la... VERY BIG LA!!! ZZZ dun help nvm.. still ask me to do this do tat..when I bz-ing cleaning the display.. the stupid lady boss thr talking..so near to phone..but when phone rings..she dun pick up..nid me from sooooo far at the end of shop.. to go & ans the phone..when she is jus INFRONT of the PHONE!!!! WTF la
Dun help, dun pick up phone.. den she go eat 1st.. after eat liao den ask me if i wan to eat.. By the time u ask me..i ardy die of hunger liao la... den somethings.. she so FREE can do on the spot..but in the end still ask me do... ZZZ CANT U C TAT IM BZ? KIP GIVING ME WORK TO DO.. ZZZ!!!

Today alot of times I rly feel like juz QUIT & LEAVE...
Even at the end of the day.. the lady boss infront of the counter..cant count the $$$..pass to me & count.. WTF la.. i so new..ask me do settlement..how i noe how to do la.. later wrong amount.. nid count everything again... so waste time... all she say is : " NA, u do... NA, u count" NA NA NA, since when my name bcome NA NA NA sia...

YTD more worst.. the boss tell me if outside got customer looking at display..muz go serve them n try pull them in... if dun serve & when he saw.. den he will BLACKFACE -.-|| tink we wad?? salesman? so bo class ? Rly can't agree when he tell me nid to go outside n serve.. Y must I go out n serve when thr is NO COMMISSION + PAY SO LIL! When other shops.. got commission & pay higher & they dun even nid to do this kind of thing!!!!!! KNS u hire a OPTOM cum CLEANER cum SALESGIRL cum EDGER cum someone who u can push responsibility to? Those difficult customer, jiu push to us.. cuz u dun wan trouble..gd lo.. u! DAMN GD!!! Everything push to us... excuse me.. u BOSS leh.. this kind of thing shd be SMALL case to u le wad..since u soooooo DAMN EXPERIENCED... SO PRO.. U still scared of these things??
Seems like wad he wans is juz a SALESMAN.. not an OPTOMETRIST!! Den go hire a salesman la.. lower pay + serve customers.. fit all his standard..
I m employed as an optom but not doing the things tat optom do... WADS THIS??
U wan ppl to do so much..but not willing to pay ppl MORE...
No wonder such a gd staff left u.. OBI!!
It's rly time u WAKE UP & think hard y so many ppl left ur shop!!
ZZZ
Dun wan to REN anymore.. say GD-BYE to these SHITs!!

I'M nobody

2010-05-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

When somebody can just so easily forget abt the meet-up with u.. means that u so not impt in their heart.. somemore the meet-up was promised by themselves...

U r probably just NOBODY to them...........

ZZZZZZZZ!!

2010-05-09T22:52:00.003+08:00

After today, % of me quiting is almost 90%!!!

Actually past 2 days alrdy got this tot liao..

Today the feeling more STRONG & FIRM!!

1st time hear ppl say when customer outside the shop..juz looking at the display, WE nid to go out & serve them & try to pull them in..ZZZ

Last time at capitol.. the staffs thr oso din go out n serve lo.. Wats with this boss??ZZZ

I meant if customer come INTO the shop, of cuz we will serve la..but outside oso nid? if not he will BLACKFACE at us?? -.-

IRRITATING.. ardy dun like to serve cust.. still wan me go outside & serve & pull them in...PLS lo.. PAY so lil..still nid to do this kind of thing... other shops pay HIGHER, oso dun nid do this kind of thing lo...WE r OPTOMETRISTS not SALESMAN!!! Whr got optical shop do this kind of thing 1.. so no class sia!! ZZZ So lil PAY + off days oso so FEW... still nid to do SO MANY things!!!! Y not jump to other shops tat hav MORE pay + off days & lesser workload, rite??

Dislike things...

2010-05-07T01:11:00.006+08:00

I really DISLIKE to:

Serve CHI-NA ppl...
They think they very superior sia.. yaya papaya..
They muz hav the BEST service..
They think they r so HIGH class.. ZZZ
#@$%^&*(*)&*^&*%$$#
BUT their attitude so sux.. so rude...
They cheat ppl.. create those lousy stuffs into market.. harm so many ppl's health like nobody's business...yet they so afraid ppl will harm them..
BTH them leh...
KNS~~
So picky.. so niao..
The boss oso very suck up.. boost CHI-NA until so gd.. say wad CHI-NA is going to be very STRONG.. STRONGER than US & other countries... their things now r very GOOD.. their things can b even BETTER than other countries.. juz tat CHI-NA so big..some area provide good things..while others not tat gd but still can make it...-.- cuz thr r 2 CHI-NA ppl in the shop... juz wan to make them SONG..ZZZ PUKE!! Er xin~ These experienced adult really can talk nonsense sia.. can say out things tat r totally opposite of wad they think..
PRO actor.
SBDL serving all these CHI-NA ppl.. spoil my mood only...

OverTime
3 out of 4 days.. keep overtime.. can't end work at 930pm!!
ZZZ
Rly dun understand these ppl.. Y they muz last min come in to make spects..buy things.. n even buy contact lens when they r 1st time wearer somemore!!
Take their own sweet time come in.. they hav alot of time to spend..but NOT us!!
We ardy work for 11hrs!! still wan let us stay.. & continue to work?? ZZZ
@#$%^&*)&*^%$#@!$%^&*(*)^&%^%$#@
Wapiangz!! Pls la..overtime oso no extra $$$.. No energy liao still nid continue serve them.. ZZZ & tat boss juz let these customers... of cuz la.. not u do.. is WE do leh... treat customers so gd.. treat staffs so niao.. WTH.. eh..pls lo.. is we help u earn $$$, cant u think for us?? We come work the EARLIEST.. but oso go bck the LASTEST!! But u leh.. u come so late.. noon time.... come late means shd b the one staying back late wad... other shop de boss is the boss stay back to serve those last min customers & let his staffs go home on the dot!!.. U leh.. juz wan use us to the FULLEST... waliao eh.. we very tired de leh... take ur lil $$$, nid do so much... win lo u...BEST LA U!!
Thx to u again lo..schedule such an EXCELLENT + EFFICIENT off-day timeline... make me work continuously nxt wk..7days..den i can get my 1 day off...THX AR THX AR~~~ like tat whr got energy for work...juz dun blame me if i come late or do wrong things for work lo...

SBDL!!

2010-05-05T23:29:00.003+08:00

Now only these 4 letters best suit my feeling; SBDL!

SBDL = SiBeiDuLan!!=X ( someone [JXXX] dun scold me for using the SB ar )

Y i say this...

Rly dun like ppl lik accusing u do things tat u din even do... they juz assume is u did it..cuz u were previously at thr & juz nice arranging things... but din even touch the other things... & when they can't find things.. they tink is u anyhow arrange the things thr.. tats y they cant find... more irritating is tat.. they dun say directly or ask isit u did it..they juz beat around the bush, drop hints, saying is u r the 1 doing it...-.-|||

Ytd ardy like tat.. i tot mayb i tink too much..but today again!! WTH... b4 i go thr those things ardy arrange lik tat le lo..i din even touch tat portion la... she jiu directly point finger at me ... tinking tat this is surely i did 1...-.-||| if u tink is i do..den juz say la.. dun nid kip hinting rite... ZZZ i hate ppl who anyhow accuse ppl & sterotype them... juz like tat ZZZ clinican.. had enuff of tat.. now i dam dislike this kind of ppl...

Feel SBDL after this thing..
Dun like this kind of job ardy ..now still got this kind of thing...-.-
How to last till 1yr? or even 1 mth..???

Not only i feel tat she & me dun click.... fren oso say bcareful of her...

Thr now only has 1 staff that i feel better to talk to... think she is a m'sian if not wrong... To me, m'sian ppl r rly frenly & nice to be with.. not so yaya & not badhearted.. they r more kind... more willing to teach & more caring...

Wah sai out of so many full time staffs.. only 1 who i can talk freely with...

Hope in the nxt 27days.. things will get better...
The timeline for me is 1mth...
My mama say: "Now everything muz REN cuz u still newbie.. Nxt time when u more familar ardy, things will change..."
Ok, now i REN!!!
REN for my license fee, for transport fare, for food & some $$$ for me to use + give my mama...
If still no gd... den gd-bye to this plce ~ ~

Got new plans

2010-05-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

Got new plans..

2nd day... still rly dun like this job...=X

Think through today... ( thx to Jeffery )

I will give myself 1 mth to adapt to this job... at least earn buy tat $$$ for tat stupid license 1st... den c how...

If can adapt, den continue this job..but if dun adapt to the ppl thr.. den i will quit & change workplace.. CAPITOL come to my mind 1st .. =)

If cant adapt.. & just nice ntu letter come..den i will juz give up this job & go study for my interest le...

No pt doing sth tat i hav no interest in...
If no interest, i won't b happy everyday..do everything meaninglessly.. do for the sake of doing..-.-|| I dun wan waste any more of my time doing things tat i ardy noe i dun like.. I ardy wasted 3yrs on this thing... & after seeing the cases in the license.... dun tink 1 yr can complete.. nid another 1 more yr..which means altgt i will waste 5YRS on sth tat i DUN LIKE!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! Hate this...
I always tot of this.. if 3yrs back..i din choose this course.. & choose mayb JC or other more office hr type of course.. mayb now i won't need to go thru all these... at least other course more flexible.. can switch path freely..dun nid to hav such time constrain.. & oso more choice of local UNIs to go to... not like this..only hav ONE & only choice... LOUSY~!! Actually i want go uni... nid not be this course.. at least get a degree, i feel more safe...

See, 1 decision can decide how u gonna live in the nxt few yrs..or mayb even the rest of ur life...

So now i must decide properly.. dun go wrong path again...

Rly shd not have too high expectations...

2010-05-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Tot thr's little hope thr...

BUT it's just me thinking too much...

Shdn't have hope so much.. or shd say..shdn't even hope in the 1st place...

Dun like means dun like...

I tot thr's a chance.. but den.. seems that the day will nv come true...

Just dun have this kind of fate..

Shdn't care abt this anymore,

Let it be.

*不能握的手从此匿名的朋友*

Feel much more relax...

2010-05-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

& oh ya..

Today my 1st day.. someone come & buy contact lens from me.. be my 1st customer...

Rly glad that he come.. at least make me more relax.. someone i familiar with... someone i noe of...

Cuz thr ALL strangers to me...

Having 1 fren of urs come support u..talk to u.. feels real gd....

If not at thr so boring...

So Im telling u guys to come visit me la...LOL!!!
if not i will bored to death!

1st day of work...

2010-05-03T23:07:00.003+08:00

Haix...

1st day of work;

I rly dun suit this line...

Need serve customers.. need talk so much!! -.=|||

So early wake up..so late come back... ZZZ

By the time 6pm today.. i ardy no more energy...

I m ardy physically tired & emotionally tired...
It's juz so sianx.. & thr's some kind of stress thr.. i duno how to express..
Juz dun feel comfortable or feel gd abt it...

How am I supposed to last for 1 yr??

The ppl thr r gd... but I rly rly dun like this kind of work...
Too long hrs!!!

I m tinking; shd i juz give up taking this license.. since i hav no interest in it.. n go pursue sth tat i hav lots of interests in...??
SHD I??
But i if juz give up..means this 3 yrs of study will b wasted...
BUT i like studying abt art & juz b an art tcher... doing the things i like... thats much more happier than now...... i dun mind the pay.. it's juz the interests that i m concern abt...

HOW!!!!!!????????

In a dilemma man...

TML!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-02T22:07:00.003+08:00

My life's NEW chapter begins TML!!!

Rly nid to throw away all my bad pts:

Lack of confidence
Low self-esteem
Soft spoken
Don't speak up
SHY
Timid

WOW..so many !!!

-.=|||

Hope i can throw away all these day by day..
Bring out the NEW me~!!

TML;
GO GO GO!!
FIGHTING~~~!!

2 more days to REST!!

2010-04-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

WOOTS!!!

Boss juz called .. & told me that tml i dun nid go for work...
MON den i report for work!!!
But he will still pay these 2 days...

After i heard this news.. i m so RELIEVED!!!
HENG ar.. can rest 2 more days...
Wat a GREAT news.... i still not ready for work tml...

YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!
Today & TML can slp late again... YAY!!!!!!!!!

TML is the DAY!!

2010-04-30T20:04:00.002+08:00

TML is 1st of MAY & is oso a day that marks the 1st day of my work..!!

Rested for abt 2 mths at home.. & now finally going out for work...!!!
THIS is my 1ST job in my life!!!
So DAMN SCARED, WORRIED!!!

The reason why Im so scared is bcuz I clearly noe that I dun suit this line.. From the start, I ardy dislike this kind of work.. I so soft spoken, no confidence, dun speak up, no gd speaking skills how can work in this retail line?? I dun talk alot to strangers not even craping wif them... only to close frens den i will open up & talk more... that will be a BIG problem when serving customers & dealing with sales... I m dam scared... X.X In fact, thats the reason why I dun wan to work this line.. I dun wan to serve customers, sell spectacles, dun wan to do sales... I dun like to do these things leh... ZZZ

BUT now rly NO choice.. cuz hosp dun accept me + nid to get that license!!! HAIX...
On the bright side, this line earns MORE $$ than hosp!! + it's nearer to my hse!! BUT the working hrs is LONGGGGGGGGGGG... which means my whole day will b spent outside most of the time... =(

Previously from student become now a working adult..
From school to working society...
It's like from tank -> pond-> lake-> sea-> to now OCEAN!!

Such a HUGE change... i rly rly rly SCARED that i cant cope...!! @.@
Afterall, i me still a kid..not an ADULT!! XD
ADULT need to carry so much responsibility BUT a kid DUN NEED!!!

I alrdy hav a rough plan of wad i wan to do after this 1 yr....
Hopefully in this 1 yr's time i can get the license & go further studies for the things i m rly interested in... & meantime SAVE up the $$$, so that i can go oversea!!... Spain.. Korea.. Japan.. Taiwan.. London.. Paris...& many MORE!! lolx

Anw,rly need to thanks Jeffery for introducing me this job..if not i tink i will be still rotting at home to wait for another company's news...

TML is the DAY!!!
Wish me GOOD LUCK tml~~~~~!!!

2010-04-19T21:27:00.003+08:00

Woots!!

I dyed my hair & cut my hair today!!!

Thou I told myself to not to dye again..cuz very hair damaging..but very TEMPTED la...
Dun care, juz went to do..... Dye + treatment + cut = $89!!! I m BROKE again!!! -.-|||

After THURS, I will reveal my NEW HAIRSTYLE!!!!

Whahahahaha...

NEW STYLE; NEW LOOK; NEW LIFE!!!
Hopes i cut away those BAD LUCK & get READY for my life's NEW CHAPTER; WORK!!!

1000!!!

2010-04-15T01:48:00.004+08:00

WOOTS!!

My blog just HIT 1000 visitors!!!

Who is the LUCKY person?!?!?!

So fast HIT 1000.. muz b alot of ppl com my blog n read rite???

Those came n read.. nv say Hi in my chatbox??!?!?!=.=|||

Anyway, thanks for visiting my blog...

I added Olivia's songs to my music playlist... Really like her songs... calm & smoothing...

Hope Olivia's smoothing voice, can relax ur mind....

P.S.Very Very Very Very Very VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY TIRED!!!! - physically & mentally.

OLD already...

2010-04-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

Waaa...

These 3 days online till 4AM for.................... then slp

Rly can't tahan man...

After 3 days, felt so tired..... my eyes very tired...can't rly open... X.X

Rly need to TRY to go slp EARLY... if not my brain can't think well.... =X

Dont't understand...

2010-04-09T23:08:00.005+08:00

Some things I rly need to blog about...
Kept it in my heart quite long already thou...
Don't care anymore... I will just blog this out... It's MY blog, I can blog wadever I want... too bad if I offend some PPL... bleh~~

I just don't understand why some PPL has such .. I don't know what exactly u termed it.. character/behavior/pattern/actions/thinking/mindset???

Why isit that when some ppl is trying so hard to maintain a friendship by arranging a time to meet up with some PPL..but that some PPL just seemed to like don't even bothered to make an effort to meet up? Everytime some ppl ask some PPL if wanna go out maybe for lunch/watch movie since long time din meet up, that some PPL would like give excuses to reject some ppl's invitation... AND it's like 10 times invitations, 10 times rejections from tat some PPL... X.X Why Why Why??? Some PPL don't want to have any contacts with some ppl anymore?? I wanted to ask that some PPL..but it's pointless now...

Anyway, can't blame some PPL oso.. Mainly is my fault too, I think... Isit because of the BAD online experience, I lead some PPL to??? Mayb is my wrong to intro some PPL to some online game..which caused some PPL to encounter bad feelings... I caused BAD influences to some PPL.. thats why now some PPL want to cut off this friendship... Yea..I m a BAD friend... I shdn't go disturb some PPL anymore since some PPL already gave such OBVIOUS hints...

Wadever~~~~~~~~~~ I don't want to care about this anymore.

Spring Clean

2010-04-09T22:51:00.021+08:00

Recently while WAITING, was busying clearing up my rooms...

Cleared up so many rubbish in TWO days!!

1st day; cleared away those unwanted/not so nice clothes from my closet..1 big bag of rubbish clothes ready to throw away~~ Den realised that one's senses of fashion rly changed when we become older... those clothes that I bought last time like sec 4 till now...rly CAN'T MAKE IT!! Duno y I will buy them in the 1st place man... Luckily, threw them away to make more space for NEW clothes!! XD

2nd day; cleared up all the rubbish from Poly year 1 till now... It's gd to clear them now..since it's the end of Poly & a new chapter of my life is going to begin.. Before this new chapter begin, throw away all the unwanted rubbish, tidy up everything & prepare for a NEW beginning...It took me 4 hours++ to complete the whole cleaning process... which oso means that thr r rly alot of rubbish to be clear away... After cleaning felt very much relieved...

A NEW start waiting for me...... =D

Waiting~~

2010-04-03T18:05:00.001+08:00

All I can do now is...

All i want is to have a OVERSEA HOLIDAY!!!!

2010-03-30T18:42:00.005+08:00

Wow!! It's been 1/2 a mth since i blog...
Reason being... it's not cuz i m busy...if i m rly busy, i will b only busying with gaming.. and busying doing hsework e.g. mop floor, cook dinner, fold clothes, hang clothes.. machiam a hsewife!! Mayb this can serve to prepare me to b ready to become a REAL hsewife n get married real soonnnnnnnnn~~~ LOL!! <<< crazy me sia..-.=

Recently read some of the blogs..most ppl blog abt their last poly results.. all got so gd results...!!! how abt me?? my results like SHIT!!! wads the pt of blogging abt this man...X.X

Today went for an interview...
Mayb too worried abt the interview tat i had a hard time to slp last nite... turn left, turn right, change position from 1 end to the other.. still cant slp.. after 2 hrs den slp...-.=
Y so worried abt the interview??? Cuz my past 2 interview, i said the wrong thing.. n in the end..din get in ...=.= so malu..so many ppl noe abt it... this time i lay low.. dun tell around 1st... wait till rly get in den say..if not say le.. din get in..so lao kui... no point telling around oso when u din even get in , in the end rite?? But think today oso gone case... suddenly ask me to perform ret n sub ref.. -.= my ans out by dam lots for ret.. sure die 1 la.. den after tat go for interview.. 1 of them is doc... they asked 1 weird qns.. " If one of ur colleague not feeling well on tat day... n asked u to take over her.. how will u feel? " i was like O.O! how to ans.. i tink my ans wasnt gd sia.. haix...den ask me whether in the holidays did i do sth for other ppl..like help other ppl?? -.- i at 1st dun rly understand wad they r asking.. in the end i said screening in CC.. the other qns 1 of them said gd.. after i ans.. means out of 3 qns.. only 1 they satisfied lo...-.- see, gone case again..now they juz wan me to gif them 2 referees .. n wait for their news... Not much hope for this... Hope my mum dun put so much hope in me.. scared i will make her disappointed.. i noe she wans me go um, if not go work in hospital.. but i m afraid i m not able to do these 2... sometimes she juz add on bit by bit of stress onto me.. cuz im her only child??? -.= haix.... Don't put so much hope on me can.. im not tat smart as u think...

Haix..mayb i shd gif up on finding hosptial jobs n guai guai go bck to retail shop to work.. retail shop more $$ n less stressful n easier to get in, dun nid to interview so much like these hospital ppl... juz tat its long hrs...

If its not bcuz of tat stupid OOB license thingy tat nid 1 full yr to complete, i would hav change pathway to further study to become art teacher liao lo!! Cuz of tis license thingy.. i cant go further study now.. N wait 1 yr or mayb more if the OOB dun approve ... it's JUZ WASTING MY TIME MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
Now most of us is juz very headache abt how to complete the case to get the OPTOM license la.. make it so difficult for wad sia the OOB..lik tat nxt time whr got ppl still wan to become optometrist la... u tell me!!!! lik tat will only result in a lack of optoms in market... den let the public eyes rot la..since not enuff optoms in the market to take care of them... ZZZ

NOW the only thing i wan to do is.... GO OUTSIDE OF SINGAPORE.. GO TO THE COUNTRIES I LIKE FOR HOLIDAYS!!! Too trapped up in singapore ardy..cant relax...n singapore is juz too small..no where to go or do... is either watch movie or shop around or eat... =.= The countries i waned to go:
Asia: Korean, Taiwan, Japan
Europe: Spain, France, London

Korea i wan to most..cuz of K POP!! wan c how hip is thr... Taiwan went b4 once..still wan to go bck..cuz thr the scenery very nice.. n the ppl thr so frenly n patience...Japan.. in my mind, its like a high-tech plce to me.. since i learnt their language.. of cuz muz go thr .. i oso wan to c their sakura... dam nice scenery..
Spain, i wan go cuz of....... European countries' buildings dam nice.. like so ancient.. so romantic plce... i wan go!!!
But now i no $$$$$ :(
Nid to save up lots of $$$$$$$..which nid duno how long sia.....
But if work in retail line..think can go 1 or 2 of the countries quite soon...XD
See how it goes... hope everything will be smooth~~~~~~

Awesome wkend with SHINee!!

2010-03-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

Went to watch <<新加坡e乐大赏>> live at floating platform last sat with catherine & her fren...
FREE tic from my aunt...
The show start from 7pm till 12am... 5hrs!!! Live music in the night... nice lighting... Totally NEW experience!!!

Of cuz the main purpose of goin thr is to watch SHINee!!! but they r the 2nd last to perform...ZZZ...means we hav to wait until 11pm + for their performance.......

We abt 6pm+ reach thr... at the beginning the show was dam boring!!! those unknown singers.... -.- ok..not i wan to look down on them..but the songs they sang..was so boring...!! like no feeling.... still sing the songs they made themselves..ZZZ ..no much rhyme.. i almost wanted to fall aslp...

Luckily..when the show starts... WOW..everything bcame exciting...
Although again..some r oso boring... lik eg... ah song..ur idol, yoga lin... his song... "see what eat what" (direct translate from chinese) is OMG de lame + not nice.. ok offence, juz saying out my opinion... den as for tanya.. her songs..i oso dun rly like..feel like slping..but mayb now i might not like..but when i grow older mayb i will appreciate her type of songs...

I tink... the acapalla grp "Budak Pantai" was not bad.. quite funny + creative kind of singing... somemore when they grped wif liu lingling..super funny!! thou din heard of this grp b4..but they r dam talented... Olivia and wei lian singing oso very gd!! hav feeling tat kind... the best i tink would b JJ & Eason...!! JJ singing wif him playing the piano is dam full of feeling... very gentle tat kind... den Eason singing is those crazy type.... so enjoying... LAST but not least...SHINee!!!! They danced 3 songs...!! when they came out..almost all the ppl stand up!! all DAM HIGH!!! rly can feel the HIGH atmosphere!! Even i this kind of quiet girl can even SCREAM for them..!! XD dam shoick man!! espically when they dance RING DING DONG!! is OMG de HIGH!!!!!
But too bad our seats r too farrrrrrr from the stage... & all the ppl stand up.. i cant rly see them... so i decided to go imm nxt day for their showcase session juz hope to c them clearer.....

(Pic from web)

So after the show ended..was ardy around 12AM!! luckily we hopped the last bus.... & reach home at around 1pm+
Den saw the web say the nxt day showcase quening will b open at 8am..!! so i & catherine nxt day 8am + reach imm..saw so many ppl quening ardy..OMG X.X!! In the end i got into the quene n made a new fren.. she oso went thr alone.. so we sit n waited for the showcase to start ...waited for 7HRS!!! omg... so tiring... i can even fell aslp when quening... in the end..they came 20mins late... den only perform for 40mins.. den the showcase ENDED..!! ZZZ n i cant rly c them.. i was so far bck behind when i went in the quene.. & oso mayb i m too short?? >.
This time round..din rly took photos of them...cuz they r so farrrrrrrrrrrr...not as close as last time when they came to Lot 1... T.T i tink will not go for any of their event unless i hav the VIP pass from my aunt..if not rly very tiring... n i noe i cant win over those fans.. they camped thr so tat they can b the 1st nxt day..how can i win?? i cant even camped..even if i go thr early..oso no use...
Ok.. nvm... at least i learnt a lesson...

샤이니~~FIGHTING!!!
키 ♥!!!

(p.s if ah song ur mum allow..u shd go for the <<新加坡e乐大赏>>..since thr r ur 2 idols yoga & wei lian.. + oso ur fav radio station..100.3fm..hahaha... we got 1 extra tic actually... too bad..wasted....)

Fairytales r FAKE....

2010-03-08T22:01:00.005+08:00

Wat is LOVE ???

I really duno...

From the most recent news; Jack Neo having affair when he already married for 27 YEARS & have so many children.... dun understand y the hell he will go hav an affair wif someone who is only 3 yrs older than his daughter (19yrs old) when he is 50yrs old...

He LOOKS like a gd husband.. a gd daddy..BUT it's seems like its not the case now...

Besides him.. US President Bill Clinton & Jackie Chan oso committed this kind of issue...

Does LOVE still exist???
U can like more than 1 person..but u only can love ONE!!
Can LOVE be trusted anymore???
Fairytales always show that the Prince love the Princess & the Princess love the Prince..& they lived happily ever after........
Does Fairytale really exist in this world??? I doubt so....
In fact, i dun tink thr is fairytale anymore....
Wat " I'll LOVE YOU FOREVER " is BULLSHIT.... in the end, only got cheated & hurt from LOVE.
Whr r those promises made when those couples got married...those vows which says: " I'll take care of him/her forever & love him/her forever no matter how old or ill he/she will be". ALL FAKE??? ALL CRAPS??? Like i said.. promises r juz meant to be broken.....

Really can't trust LOVE...
I don't believe in LOVE anymore...
Now is so difficult to find someone who doesn't cares abt ur looks, ur background, whether u r rich or poor... juz truly from the heart love u .. u as in JUZ u..no others.... I tink EXTINCT ardy....

One moment one can say LOVE u..but the other moment tat person might say to another person... tats y Divorce rate keep increasing... Relationships keep broken...

How sad can these be...?
It only causes more & more BROKEN HEARTS around in this world.

X promises

2010-03-04T02:03:00.003+08:00

Promises r meant to be broken???

Wats the point of giving someone promises...when those promises r always broken?

Why, i feel so sad...???

Tried to b happy..but bcame sadder after tat...............

Speechless........

Bore, bored, boring......

2010-03-02T19:57:00.006+08:00

Today the WORKSHOP was soooooooooooo BORING!!!! X10000000000000
9am - 5pm... so long de timing... so difficult to kill time!!
So early somemore!!! ZZZ
Go thr listen abt Grace khoo communication skill module?!?!?!
Ardy dun like to go for her class... now still ask me com bck for this type of thingy...-.-.. thx ar....
Waste my ENERGY, Waste my TIME!!!!
Whole day, my heart not in the workshop...
Only DRAWING kips me awake!!!
Kip drawing throughout the whole workshop...
If not, i sure fell aslp!!!
Here r the drawings.. by 3 artists...LOL XD

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Juz wan to voice out something...
I tink SOMEBODY is abit too over liao...
Nid to do until so OBVIOUS mah???
As a outsider... i alrdy cant stand tat person's actions liao lo...
I cant imagine how the actual person will feel..
Isit cuz the person ardy got used to it .. too numb abt it..tats y dun feel anything...
I from outside..i ardy BTH liao...
Don't he tink tat he is abit too sticky???
Watever the girl do .. he kip looking at her..noticing her... like stalker lik tat sia...!!
She go whr.. he oso wan to go...
I belong to the grp.. it's perfectly normal for me to stay in my grp n wait for my frens..but he still can ask me...: wad u waiting for???
-.-|||
I tink i shd b the one asking him this qns bah...ZZZ
Nobody ask him to stay bck leh... still ask me this kind of qns...
Cant he get the hint tat..the girl no feel towards him...? y like a super glue..kip sticking to her..
If the girl is me..i will feel very FAN..very IRRITATED, very PISSED off!!! Worst comes to worst..i will juz gif him attitude.. Wont gif him face.
Sometimes..guys shd not b so sticky to girls... esp when the girl dun even like the guy...
In my views..i tink tat he is too OVERLY concern abt the girl..
I feel very weird & awkward..when he is in our grp..when all r GIRLS!!
Wif him, very difficult for us to talk abt things among us...
BTH sia... ZZZ!!Last time still feel nth..but now.. mayb his actions bcom more n more OBVIOUS.. tats y now feel SO weird & awkward until i dun wan to b lightbulb when only 2 of them.. since he wans to kip stick to her..i shall not interrupt.

Before February ends...

2010-02-28T21:28:00.008+08:00

Before my favorite month ends.............

Let me conclude...

The following days of this yr for me.. i tink will b a CUTE yr..
Bcuz.....
this yr my birthday presents r all SOFT toys...!!! CUTE STUFFS...

Haha..my 2nd birthday gift is a bearbear...

WHITE-TOOTH vs BEARBEAR~~~

AND... FINALLY my birthday photos.... -.-

So many things ended in February...
Clinic, FYP, Sch..... and... will halcon-piggy end oso??? haix.......

Before 1st March starts....
It's time to decide wad to do next....
Deep thoughts.............

SHAGGED!!

2010-02-24T22:09:00.006+08:00

FINALLY!! Today marks the END of my poly life!!!

Today the food was....=.=|||
No appetite to continue eating...

The whole day so hot & humid!!
Make the ardy not enuff slp person lik me... so TIRED the whole day!! No energy.. i can juz fell aslp lik tis...

ALL i nid is juz SLP!!!!
My mood will b very bad, very easily PISSED off if i dun hav enuff slp...
Den today tat stupid LRT spoil again!! kana stucked in the middle of the track...ZZZ
Not the FIRST time ardy lo!! everytime lik tat!!! IRRITATING!!! SOMEMORE IN THE MORNING!!! ZZZ AND IN THE MORNING I HAV TEST!!! ZZZ.. I COM OUT EARLY LIAO..STILL LATE..ALL BCUZ OF TIS LOUSY LRT!!!! WASTE MY 15MINS!!! MADE ME RUSH TO THE VENUE...ZZZ..MY WHOLE MORNING, MOOD ARDY DAM PEK CEK...ZZZ...

So fast 3 yrs of poly life, juz ended lik tis... like juz happen only...
Came into the sch, everything duno.. no frens..till now noe so much ..n hav so much frens.....

Now tot tis path hav com to an end..BUT. actually NO!!! still nid to deal wif it for 1 yr to get license.. & in tis 1 yr..so many things to do...!! ZZZ do it in part time....
X.X!!! the CHANGE tat i ardy decide..seems like cant happen... nid to wait for 1 yr den can carry out the CHANGE..ZZZ...but by then i m how old ardy?!?!?!?!?! >.

PIG-RABBIT arrived in SG!!!

2010-02-23T17:44:00.002+08:00

O.O!!

Pig-Rabbit has arrived in SG!!!
Saw it today in one of the shop...
SO SHOCKED!!!
MORE SHOCKED when c the price...!!
SO EXPENSIVE!!!!!
THOSE who buy it, is rly CRAZY!!!

It's same as wad i drew...
But not as cute as it appear in the drama...
The drama's Pig-Rabbit is cuter!!
Duno y oso...

NVM~~ i hav my White-Tooth ardy...tats enuff...
Pig-Rabbit....... hmmmmmmmmm.... forget it...

OVER~~!!!!!

2010-02-23T17:35:00.003+08:00

YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY OVER~~~~~~~!!!

It's really FINAL Final Year Project!!!

1 year of HARD WORK!!! FINALLY end today!!!
The presentation today = NERVOUS, STRESS, COLD, BLANK, STUNT and..... FUNNY!!!
LOL!!!

I still tink tat my grp's presentation is BETTER than the grp after us!!
At least our slides r nicer, more colourful.. and chers still laugh during our presentation...not like them.. so dull backgrd and so chim presentation..so serious... so boring... no wonder chers no smile but wan to fall aslp la..... bleh =X

Now everything have com to an END!!!
TML marks the last day of sch!!!
WOOTS!!!!
What to do next????

FINAL FINAL!!!!

2010-02-22T20:41:00.005+08:00

TML !!!!!! THE MOST IMPT DAY!!!!!!

TML IS THE DAY!!!

STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!

MLT 1; the plce whr first day of poly life starts & oso the plce whr it all end.
TML is the FINAL for my FYP!!!
FYP PRESENTATION!!!!!! OMG!!!
Saw how some grps present today...soooooo STRESS~~~~~~ SCARYYYYYYYYYY....
TML IS MY GRP's TURN!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!
SO NERVOUS!!!!!!
So scared later i too nervous tat i blank out in the middle of the presentation!!

Hope tml my grp can present smoothly & hope the qns asked will be easy!!

ALL THE BEST TO ALL THE GRPS TML !!!
GO GO GO !!!! FIGHTING!!!!

DOTzzz

2010-02-19T00:30:00.004+08:00

Wats the point of planning so much.. when always in the end, the plans can't carry out???

Always planned so much... waited for sooo long........ till this hour.......!!!but in the end... -.-|||
Always like tat...
Prepare so much ardy.. but now wad?? ZZZ

so TIRED ardy...!!

Dun wan to plan ardy.. dun wan to prepare so much ardy.. dun wan to WAIT ardy...let it b.. dun wan to care so much.

BLEH!

ONE & ONLY

2010-02-17T04:01:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes, just a few simple words, cures the sadness in one's heart...

You don't need the whole world... but just ONE person... just ONE person to understand you AND that's more than enough!! "

CNY @ my HOUSE!!

2010-02-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

Today my family turn to host CNY..

It's been very long since so many ppl com my house for CNY...

Today was fun & happy...until...... 1 incident....zzzzzzzz
Grandpa nag nag nag............. =.=|||
Nag from 1 thing till another thing.... kip on nagging..non-stop!!!
The main thing he nag abt is US, grandchildren......

DOTS!!!

Make the whole atmosphere became so tense... like a WAR...!! CNY 2010's WAR???
Grandpa VS Grandma 's WAR!!!
O.O!!!
Everyone silent..........

In the end.... He went bck home alone early..... -.-|||
Everytime like tat...
Spoil the whole atmosphere...

NVM~~~

Luckily today i play poker!!!
WOOTS!!! din waste the whole CNY!!!!
Din win, din lose... although i got alot of bun-luck!!!
But very FUN!!!!
HUAT ar!!!!!! LOL!!!

CNY 2010

2010-02-16T01:40:00.006+08:00

So fast...!!
2 days of Chinese New Year had past........

This year like dun rly feel the festival much...
mayb cuz too busy wif sch stuffs... suddenly hav Chinese New Year..lik the mood suddenly cant change over... Or mayb oso bcuz.. this year go visiting at late afternoon... the day like so fast end... n din play gamble this year..so din feel much of the festival...

Tml last day of celebration for my family... Tml i m not visiting any house..cuz........... tml venue is MY HOUSE!!!! Hahaha... tml juz wait for them to com my house to visit me!!! Hope tml can gamble, if not no chance ardy....

Chinese New Year or COUSINs' Photo Taking??? LOL~~~~~~

BLEH~

2010-02-14T01:50:00.004+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO UPLOAD MY BIRTHDAY PICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WT~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO SLOW!!!!!

I wan to BLOG oso cant...ZZZZZZZZZZZZ

WAIT TILL U SEND ME THE PICS... I ARDY NO MOOD TO WRITE ~!!!!!
STILL SAY WAIT TILL AFTER TAKE FIN NEW YEAR PICS DEN UPLOAD TGT!!! ZZZZZ
WAIT TILL SO LONG... DAM NO MOOD LIAO LA~!!!!!
U NOT THE 1ST DAY NOE ME!!! I M VERY IMPATIENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
YTD ask u send... u say tired... nvm... i understand... TODAY ask u send.. u charging the CAM..ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I tink my Chinese New Year pics post up liao.. my BIRTHDAY pics still duno at whr lo.... NOW alrdy CHINESE NEW YEAR... SURE BLOG MORE ABT CHINESE NEW YEAR liao la... WADEVER~~~~~ dun blog abt my birthday liao. This is the BAD THING when BIRTHDAY is so near to CHINESE NEW YEAR.......ZZZ!!!

20 Years!!

2010-02-12T00:57:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 20TH to ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO FAST!!!!! 20 yrs juz past lik tat..........

With 1 BLINK of eye... I'm 20 yrs old NOW!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG X.X!!!!

Hope this will b a GOOD yr for me... This yr i rly hope tat my studies will b smooth....

This yr i gave up on wishing for 1 thing..tat nv happen b4...ZZZ i wish for sooo many yrs.. this yr..dun wish le....

======FLASH BACK======

My 1ST BIRTHDAY:

See... i dam cute rite..when i was still a baby...XD
I always think tat im the MOST GOOD LOOKING, MOST PRETTY GIRL when i was a baby!!! The ONE thing tat I CAN SAY OUT PROUDLY!!!! LOL!! ONLY WHEN I WAS A BABY!!! ( ps:now no more...)

I LOVE MY BABY LOOK...HAHAHAHAH XD!!!

Valentine's DAY!!!

2010-02-11T18:22:00.003+08:00

Been noticing this movie few months ago.. cuz of TAYLOR SWIFT & TAYLOR LAUTNER starring in this movie!!!FINALLY, on cinema today...!!!

The movie is ALL abt LOVE~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

How sweet would it be...if someone u like, ask u out to watch this movie esp on Valentine's Day!!! XD

.....speechless.....

2010-02-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

My 1ST drawing of 2010...

Stopped drawing for sooooo many daysssssssss...... 1ST drawing is this kind drawing...

DOTS DOTS DOTS

Today Competency test...........

WHOLE MORNING SO STRESSED UP !!!
Part of it is bcuz..last sem did BADLY for it..so this sem..wan to improve.. tats y see it as very impt... put alot of effort to study.. dun wan to make any wrong if possible... so planned to reach thr earlier..to hav time to calm down... BUT.... in the end.. rush thr.......................................................-.-|||

When reached thr... juz step into the plce.. can feel the air was so HEAVY & STRESS!!!! So difficult to breathe.........
Especially when everyone starts to revise everything during the waiting time...
Like cant rmb anything... BLANK!!! LOST!!!!!

Den the test began... STRESS started to build up.... stations after stations......... 12 STATIONS in TOTAL!!!!!!

It's when u screwed up 1 station..den the following stations..u start to panic..... cuz kip worrying abt the previous stations... cuz din do correctly... i noe shld not kip tinking of the previous stations.. shld move on...but it's natural thing... cant help it... my mind juz cant stop tinking...ZZZ

I tink i got FIVE stations FAILED!!!
They say if FAIL more than FOUR, nid to RETEST...............X.X

No matter how much i prepare or study... on the actual day, things still screwed up... prepare so much oso no use in the end...

Isit becuz when u hav no more interest in something..tats y no matter how hard u try... things juz go wrong?? pointless....

Over STRESS for the 1st half of the day... now everything over... totally BLANK now.. emotionless.............................

WOOT!! OPEN EYE~~

2010-01-31T18:30:00.005+08:00

Today 11am + den reach the venue!!
The even 1.30pm then start... but when i reach thr... is WOW!!! so many ppl!!!
the quene sooo long...

Lucky i hav VIP pass..if not i sure cant c SHINee today...
Cant even buy the album.. duno whr to buy oso...
Waited around 1230pm den xiao gu's fren bring me up to the Roof garden...

SOOOOO MANY PPL!!!! like BURST lik tat.. every lvl in LOT 1 ...all full of ppl.. even the escalator stop working...

Den i tink.. nvm lo.. cant buy album..dun sign lo..juz c...is ardy very lucky to dun nid to quene and squeenze wif ppl.. & can c them so clearly...

Those queuing in the 1st few rows r those who came to queue yesterday night!! WT!!!! tot the web say cant queue overnight?? win liao lo!!!! Saw quite alot of boy fans!!! So not bad looking.. got the korean style.. some look like SHINee lo...LOL!!

Today the DJ is Pei Fen.. She is rly dam chio!!! Her style oso like korean .. SO CUTE & PRETTY!!!!

As usual... normally these idols will com late...
When they com.. all scream lik MAD!!!
I m juz few CM away from them!!! They dam skinny!! esp Minho & Joonghyun!!! Their face dam smooth!! Can't believe it... guys' face smoother than girls?!! OMG!!! they r like soooo PREFECT!!!!All of them dye hair.. sooo bright colour...& KEY skin so white!!! n he is super stylish!!! GREEN strip hair... so unique!! No wonder he say he likes girls tat r stylish... cuz he is super stylish!! Kz, i gonna b a STYLISH girl...LOL!! XD KEY got look at me... YAY!!! & Taemin saw me..n smile at me....but shyly...LOL!!

BUT quite disappointing.. cuz they din SING any songs!! not even 1 chorus!! ZZZ.. ENERGY din sing song..but still got sing 1 chorus of the song lo... ZZZ

KOREAN group VS TAIWAN group
There is rly a DIFFERENCE!!
As in korean is stricter than taiwan...
Like today... the autograph session.... is not u buy album..den u can get FIVE ppls' signature... They only let u get 1 of them to sign the album..!! ZZZ.. Basically is c ur LUCK!! inside the album got 1 scratch card... if u got for example KEY, den u will queue under KEY n only let him sign... WT~~!! y cant let all to sign?? ZZZ!!! So stringy!!!

Den cant even shake hands wif THEM!!! ZZZ!!! ENERGY can..y SHINee cant??? scared our hands dirty???
They so strict until kip ask me who m i..y m i standing here.. den dun let me take pics lo!!! ZZZZ but i juz secretly take some.. CRAZY me if i dun take la.. KEY so CLOSE to me!!! the more u dun let me take.. the more i wan to take...BLEH!!!

I whole day juz stand thr n c them signing.. juz nice the 1 closest to me..is KEY!!! SO LUCKY ME!!!! From wat i observe.. Korean group like got distance... like got 1 wall between fans.. mayb is language barrier...but they r oso frenly.. every fans com..Key will say "hello" ... n smile.. Minho oso.. Taemin n Onew too far..i cant c... Joonghyun , can c tat he is abit not tat frenly compared to the rest.. Korean guys like so gentle.. i tink Onew is the most polite 1..cuz when he pass his mic to the ppl..he use both hands to pass.. n look at them..
Den got 1 fans din buy the album on the spot..dun hav the pass.. She only left few more step to letting KEY sign her album..but the management ppl chase her out..juz bcuz she dun hav the pass..=.= so STRICT!!! den the fans ask the person pass a card to KEY..den she walk off.. but the management person..juz throw the card into the plastic bag.. WA PIANG..lik tat treat fan's hand made things for idol..ZZZ they duno how long n how much effort a fan put in for their idol..ZZZ!!!! see ardy ANGRY!!!

Overall, today i m not so excited... mayb cuz i old ardy.. over the age of FANs chasing IDOLS... or oso mayb cuz im went thr alone...so no one share wif me the EXCITEMENT!!!+ din get to buy their album n let ONE of them sign...Tats y abit sianx... But can c them in person..rly is not bad ardy...SO RARE chance!! somemore so close!!! The ending part..soooo weird..normally after sign fin..they will let fans go back into the plce..& c their idols again..& will oso let idols say byebye to fans..but today DUN hav..fan sign fin..hav to leave..den they dun let fans com bck again..den ending part..thr no ppl... so empty..den the event juz end lik tat..=.="
Took pics & videos...

the VIDEOS can b seen in my facebook..
Here upload Video so slow.....=.=|||

SHINee !!!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T21:11:00.003+08:00

Now SHINee is in SG!!!!
Breathe the SAME air as us!!! Muz breathe MORE!!!!!XD

YAY!!!!! TML is the day!!!! SHINee DAY!!!!

Lucky tml got the VIP pass!! So dun nid so early go thr...!!!

But only limit to 1000 ppl for the autograph!!!

Pray hard tml i can get their autograph!!! PLSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!

SHINee gonna go ROCKA ROCKA ROCKA ROCKA ROCKA ROCKA, so fantastic!!!

the PURPLE surprise!!

2010-01-30T20:51:00.003+08:00

This is the SOMETHING tat i mention earlier!!!

the PURPLE charm!!!

Like not very obvious to me.. BUT today i went out..so many ppl noticed the PURPLE hair..

So obvious?? Still wanted to go add in 2 more strips... XD

...

2010-01-28T15:19:00.002+08:00

Having a TERRIBLE stomachache!!!
Together wif cold sweat..!!! X.X
I noe wats the reason for these...ZZZ
Stomachache + cold sweat + dam tired, very restless + no strength...ZZZZ :(

Hope these wont affect this SUN event!!! IMPT event to me!!!

1 MORE DAY to SHINee arrival!!! Can breathe the same AIR as them!!!
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3 MORE DAYS can c SHINee in person!!!! KEY~~~~~~~!!!!!!!

BAD girl

2010-01-27T20:23:00.002+08:00

Sometimes being too good n too kind will get bullied!!

Bcuz some ppl like to bully those quiet quiet ones.. think tat they r weak .. so THESE ppl will climb to those good ppl's head n bully them...
Why? cuz they tink tat soft-spoken ppl wont talk bck.. will always let them bully & suffer silently???

So i guess i shd change to a BAD girl.. since b gd girl will get bullied.... y not i b a BAD girl... lik tat wont get bully...

Now i wan to b a BAD girl.. 1st..start from appearance..found sth very compatible wif this type of style.... will do it this few days.. Nxt is to b BAD inside.. U use HARD method on me.. i will use the same method on U!! If let under u one more time.. tis time.. u will get it..!!!! No mercy.. !!

BAD BAD GIRL coming soon.....................

!@#$%^#&^)(_+()^&%^$%#$@#!$%^&

2010-01-23T21:14:00.009+08:00

DAM ANGRY, SUAY, FRUSTRATED, SAD TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAT IS WRONG WIF HER???????????

KIP PICKING ON ME... SEE ME BUAY SONG... HATE ME SO MUCH????????????????????????

TIO HER AGAIN FOR CLINIC AGAIN!!! DAM DAM SUAY!!!

LAST SEM 2 GE, SHE FAILED ME ALTOGETHER 12 FAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS SEM FAIL ME AGAIN!!!!!

YA YA.. I ADMIT I DID SOME MISTAKES... TATS MY WRONG..NOT LIKE I DUNO I DID WRONG... THE WRONG PARTS, FAIL ME..I STILL CAN ACCEPT... BUT THE REST... I DUN TINK SO!!!!!!!!!

TINK SHE RLY C ME BUAY SONG.. WAN TO MAKE ME FAIL AS MANY AS POSSIBLE UNDER HER... WT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERYTHING I DO.. OR SAY..SHE DOUBT ME...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.........!!! SHE IS STILL THE SAME AS LAST SEM...SO UNREASONABLE!!!!!!!!!!! !@#$%^&*(*)_()(*&^%$
WHEN ASK ME HOW TO MANAGE THE PX, I TELL HER JUZ LIKE WAD OTHER CHERS MANAGE THE SAME KIND OF PX..BUT SHE, GIF ME THE IRRITATING DOUBT FACE... GOT WRONG MEH... OTHER CHERS OSO LIK TAT MANAGE.. WADEVER I DO OR SAY... SHE JUZ TINK TAT I M WRONG... EVERYTHING FROM ME IS WRONG!!!!!!!! WTH LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
EVEN MY TIMING INSIDE THE TIME LIMIT... SHE ONLY GIF ACCEPTABLE...ZZZZZZZZZZ...PLS LA..OTHER CHERS EITHER GIF GD OR EXCELLENT LA... WT.... RLY SO DISLIKE ME !!

MORE ANGRY IS TAT... MY CONTACT LENS GRADING.. THE MOST IMPT PART OF THE CONTACT LENS IS THE FITTING ASSESSMENT.... SHE DIN EVEN DO PUSH-UP TEST N GRADE THE FITTING..DEN HER ANS OPP FROM MINE.. SO SHE FAIL ME...WTH!!!!!!!! U SURE U R RIGHT?????????? EVEN MS DAWN GIF ME GD FOR FITTING ASSESSMENT LO... ALL THE CHERS WHO GRADE ME TIS SEM FOR CONTACT LENS..ALL DIN FAIL ME LO... ONLY HER!!!!!! ZZZZZ!!!! PULL DOWN MY OVERALL MARKS LEH... IDIOT!!!!! STILL TOT I TIS SEM CONTACT LENS MODULE CAN IMPROVE ABIT & OSO TOT MY FITTING ASSESSMENT SKILL IMPROVE ABIT ARDY..... NOW LEH...ZZZZ!!!! PURPOSELY WAN TO FAIL ME ... SAY LA.. I LET U FAIL ME ALL COMPONENT LA... LIKE TAT U VERY HAPPY RITE?!ZZZZZZZZ
N DAM STUPID THING IS TAT..SHE EVEN FAIL ME ON THE OTHERS COMPONENT..SAY I NOT CONFIDENT... OF CUZ LA..C U TIS KIND OF PERSON..HOW TO B CONFIDENT.. KIP DOUBTING WAD I DO AND SAY.. KIP TINK TAT MY JUDGEMENTS R ALWAYS WRONG..N URS ALWAYS RIGHT!!! I WAN TO B CONFIDENCE OSO HARD LA... SO IRRITATING.. TINK TAT SHE VERY SMART... ASK ME FIT CONVENTIONAL CLEAR CONTACT LENS!!! WHEN I TOLD HER OUR HERE DUN HAV TIS TYPE OF LENS..ONLI HAV COLOUR CONTACT LENS..SHE STILL CAN SAY BCK: "NOW U STUDYING HERE OR ME? U SHD NOE BETTER THAN ME RITE " ZZZZZZZZZZZ.. ARDY TOLD HER LIAO RITE... NO CONVENTIONAL CLEAR LENS..SHE DUN UNDERSTAND ENG ISIT? WAN ME SPEAK INDIAN FOR HER ? ZZZZZZ... DEN I GO CHECK WIF COUNTER.. THEY SAY ONLI CONVENTIONAL COLOURS LENS.. SEE LA.. SO GAY KIANG... FIT NORMAL LENS JIU HAO LA.. REQUIRE THINGS TAT IS NOT AVAILABLE.. NOT AVAILABLE STILL NVM..STILL DUN BELIEVE WAD I SAY... WTH LA!!! GND LA SHE...TIS KIND OF CLINICIAN HOW TO TAHAN ...DEN STILL WAN TO LET PX WEAR LENS GO HOME..WHEN THE PX IS NON-CONTACT LENS WEARER...WT... I TINK HER MANAGEMENT FOR CONTACT LENS SUX TO HELL!!!! HOW SHE B A CLINICIAN LIK TAT...
B4 THE DAY, I ARDY GO BUILD UP MY CONFIDENCE FOR THIS CLINIC LE.. AND OSO SLP EARLY NOW LET HER LIK TIS SAY.. SAY UNTIL LIKE I SO USELESS..EVERYTHING OSO DUNO... GG LA... ALL MY CONFIDENCE ALL BCK TO ZERO ARDY!!! SHE SEE EVERY CHANCE TO FAIL ME... EVEN OTHERS COMPONENTS..SHE OSO CAN FAIL ME... DAM PRO SIA....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
SHE ONLY SAY ABT MY BAD PTS... EVEN IF I DID STH GD..SHE DIN PRAISE ME.. OTHER CHERS..WILL SAY MY BAD PTS..N OSO MY GD PTS.. BUT SHE DIN...WT........ SHE EVERYTHING ALL SAY ME UNTIL VERY LOUSY.. I NOE I M VERY BLUR... BUT M I SO LOUSY LIKE WAD SHE SAY ???????? ALL SHE DO IS ASK ME DO QUICKLY.. N DOUBT WADEVER I DO.. TINK OF HER IRRITATING FACE..RLY FEEL LIKE PIAK HER FACE!!!!!!!!!!
I DO FIN ON TIME, SO WAD? SHE OSO DIN GIF ME EXCELLENT...ZZZ...DAM SHIT
UNDER HER..I RLY HATE IT... I TINK IF EVERY SAT I TIO HER.. I CAN FAIL MY CLINIC MODULE!!!! ALL THX TO HER!!!!
LAST SEM LIKE TAT, NOW STILL LIKE TAT... WTH!!!
I RLY HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NXT TIME TIO HER AGAIN.. WAD SHD I DO? B MORE FIERCE THAN HER? SHOOT TO HER WORDS??
THIS KIND OF PPL HOW CAN B CLINICIAN?? SACK HER LA...! WTH
I DUN AGREE WAD SHE DO..... N HOW SHE GRADE... OTHER CLINICIANS TELL ME ABT MY BAD PTS...... NO MATTER HOW BAD IS IT..I STILL CAN LISTEN... LISTEN FULLY... N ACCEPT HOW THEY GRADE ME.. BUT SHE...NO WAY!!!!!! WADEVER SHE SAY.. I CANT LISTEN N ACCEPT.. I JUZ SHUT MY EARS!! CUZ I DUN TINK WAD SHE SAY IS RIGHT... SO UNREASONABLE... OTHER CLINICANS... IS MORE REASONABLE X10000000000000000 THAN HER!!!!!!!!!! THEY DUN DOUBT PPL, THEY WILL TELL ME WHR I WRONG..N ASK ME TO IMPROVE... SHE...TINK TAT SHE FROM TTSH JIU VERY PRO... IN TTSH JUZ A STUDENT OF THE DOCS.. NOW COM SP CLINIC IS WAN TO ACT BIG LA...... GND LA....!!!!!!!!!! LEARN FROM MS DAWN LA... SHE IS MORE EXPERT THAN U x1000000000000000!!!!
Everytime after tio her... feel very HUI XIN for clinic... cuz imagine..everything u do.. she pick on u.. rly dam sianz..say u tis no gd..tat no gd... i wan to improve..but did u gif me a chance???? :( I DUN RLY LIKE TIS COURSE ARDY..NOW TIS KIND OF THING... MAKE ME MORE DISLIKE TIS COURSE!!!!!

Luckily still hav other chers tat treat me very gd... at least not so saddening...

"Big girls, don't cry.........
...........but I'm only a small girl"

NO hope alrdy!!

2010-01-21T17:56:00.001+08:00

Say the wrong words in the interview!!

X.X!!

Tink NO hope for the uni le..................................

Now nid find other routes to go... ..........................................

Boring~~~~~~

2010-01-20T21:11:00.003+08:00

Nowadays feel so BORED!!!!

Went bck to my past habit, play online games!!!
Now i dun play multi-player online games, but play single player online games..it's juz like how i used to start playing online games...ownself play..no other ppl..simplier and not complicated...

SIANXZZZ!!!
TML, nid go for the UNI interview...ZZZZ
4.40pm den start..ZZZZ means i hav to wait from 12pm to 4.40pm? ZZZ
WASTE MY TIME!!!!!
Wat to do in tis 4hrs+ ??? go library n SLP/ go home slp??????
Not like i m very interested in tis UNI lo~~!!!!
Juz apply for FUN nia...
still nid to interview...
Ya, i noe my results not so gd..not up to the standard...
Den can juz disqualify me??
Dun nid to hav wad interview la....=.=|||
If tml they ask me abt theory n practical stuffs, i sure die...
but nvm..who cares... i not goin to prepare for it... juz go thr n waste time.
Juz go for the sake of goin.....
They oso surely will ask me..y i wan to join tis UNI...ZZZ, in my mind, i will juz say: "i m NOT interested in tis UNI..juz join for FUN...."
But outside..how shd i say??

Aiya...WATEVER la.. dun tink ardy...
Go back play my GAMES!!!! XD

OMG SHINee!!!

2010-01-20T20:59:00.003+08:00

SHINee coming to SG!!! OMGOMGOMG!!!! SO unexpected!!!

1 of my wish come true sia..!!!
A dam gd advanced BIRTHDAY present!!!!

Can see KEY in person!!!

& so zhun..com LOT 1..so near my hse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope they perform RING DING DONG!!!!!

I will sure pon sch tat day... !!! die die oso muz go...!!! if it's tue..den i cant go...T.T!!! CLINIC cant pon...ZZZ

Tink will hav alot of ppl go... hope xiao gu got VIP pass let me go in......juz like ENERGY tat time... c them very near!!! O.O!!!!!!!!!

Cant go for their another event at esplanade..cuz too EX!!! T.T
So MUZ CFM go this autograph session in LOT 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pray hard tat day is not TUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHINee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fighting!!!

WHY so tired EVERYDAY???

2010-01-18T21:18:00.006+08:00

SO TIRED... EVERYDAY!!! esp. in daytime....
Like Zombie lik tat.........
No strength...

Duno isit cuz i everyday slp late, 2am+ , 3am +

OR

Isit bcuz of my diet??

Today eat a normal dinner that include RICE...
BUT after eating..feel like vomiting..X.X
WT!!!~~~~~~~~~
CRAZY~~ @.@

CRAZIER thing is that i m sooo TIRED that i fell slp in sch library TWICE today!!

HAIX~~~

East Scenary

2010-01-18T21:18:00.003+08:00

Frens4ever!!

OMG!!!~~ My tooth bcame SO BIG!!!

2010-01-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

Wad a BIG tooth!!!
Saw it in 1 shop todae....
SO CUTE!!!
I LIKE IT !!! XD

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else...

2010-01-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

Got this quote from this facebook group...

"Isn't it ironic? We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones that ignore us, love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us."

Sad to say... it's so TRUE....!!!

Always like tat.........................

爱人,好;还是被爱,好???
Those selfish ppl surely choose 被爱好..cuz dun nid to put in effort den will hav som1 to love u like mad..won't get hurt...
If choose 爱人好, means thr person will hav to suffer alot... sure get hurt...!!
Best is 互爱...HE loves YOU, YOU loves HIM....
But this kind, difficult to find... haix...

Whatever~~
Too lazy to think abt these....
Forget it.....

To me, FRIENDS r still the BEST~!!!!!!! =)

Word-Lost

2010-01-15T23:49:00.004+08:00

These few days, my brain like brain block...
Duno wad i m talking actually... words like stuck stuck... cuz my brain n mouth r not cooperating well...
My brain not functioning well...
Too shagged ardy..

Mayb bcuz of the 3-4 hrs of slp everyday?
Everyday 2am + den slp..when most of the time, i hav to wake up to go sch at 5.30am +
CRAZY me~~~ X.X
But i too early go slp.. i oso cant slp... it bcomes a HABIT ardy... a BAD HABIT of slping late....

This whole wk.. got THREE times CLINIC!!! =.=
Pon 2 days of sch ( but the other 4 days go sch.. n sun nid go out... )... but still so tired.....
Now my every Saturday will b at CLINIC..=.=!!! my WKENDS!!! i wan to wake up late de eh~~~ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!

Lovely Bones

2010-01-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

Juz watched finish this MOVIE!!

So mystery...

weird....

strange........

TML!!!

2010-01-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

Tml is my MAMA's BIRTHDAY!!!

Bought a bag for her as present..

Dun say i BO XIM k.. i m still very XIAO SHUN 1.....bleh~

Last time..when i still young.. my parents' BIRTHDAY, i din celebrate for them..din say happy BIRTHDAY to them...din make card..din buy present.. it's only when i grow OLDER..den i do these... Last yr bought cake..this yr.. present!!

I tink everyone's BIRTHDAY is very important... cuz ONCE a yr only...
BIRTHDAY is VERY VERY VERY important to me!!!
Imagine if no one rmb ur BIRTHDAY, how saddening is this...
Everyday work so hard..so early go out..so late den com home... soooo tiring...
Present can make them happy... n encourage them...

If no present, it's ok...
If no card, it's also ok
It's juz the BIRTHDAY wishes from ppl ... like: Happy Birthday...!! tats enuff...
Overall it's the HEART tat counts...
At least thr's still someone who rmb ur BIRTHDAY~!!! =)

Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant

2010-01-14T19:38:00.004+08:00

Todae went to watch: Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant

Another VAMPIRE movie!!!
This movie is more action/violence kind of movie...very lil romance inside...
Twilight has more romance...
OF CUZ, i like Twilight more... cuz more mysterious..n the ACTORS more attractive..EDWARD~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!! LOL!!!
No wonder todae the cinema is so empty..as compared to Twilight; FULL HSE!!!

But this Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant movie's effect oso not bad...juz tat for the whole movie..i din c any vampire's long teeth... =.=|||

More n more into Vampire's shows...!!!

Nowadays PPS stream hav lots of movies tat singapore's cinema haven start showing yet..
e.g Lovely bone... todae juz saw the thriller at cinema... mysterious movie..now ardy on PPS!!! it's abt a girl got killed by some1..but actually juz went to somewhr...n now her family r finding the truth... MUZ WATCH~~ !! later i watch.....

MOVIES again!!!

2010-01-14T00:15:00.006+08:00

YAY!!!

Movies time AGAIN!!!!

This time watched 5.5 movies in this 1.5 day...

0.5 movies is cuz i finally found Twilight New Moon online.. tat time missed half n hr of the movie in cinema..now finally can watch bck... ... not bad, juz tat the quality of the movie not very clear... blur~ X.X

Out of the 5.5 movies.. 2 movies i like most...

1st: 悬崖上的金鱼公主 ( Ponyo )

So CUTE, little fish-girl....
Reminds me of Spirited Away...
The drawing very nice...!!!
i tink if wan to learn drawing... shd go japan n learn..
their drawing rly very nice!!! I LIKE~!!!

2nd: 人狗奇缘

Another doggie movie~~ but this 1 is Korean movie..
Japan oso hav sth similar to this.. the "10 promises wif doggie" forgot the actual name...

Watch this kind of movie, will make me oso wan to kip a doggie... cuz soo CUTE... if i wan to kip.. i wan this kind:

Cute cute 1..look like teddy bear...
i only like small small, cute cute dogs..scared of big dogs n chihuahua..cuz i was chased by chihuahua when i was young... so scary..!! X.X

But after watch these movies.. tink better not to kip dogs..cuz later they die..den i will b very sad....

1more month....

2010-01-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

1 MORE MONTH;

31 days;

to ...........
................
........................
..............................
...................................
.............................................my BIRTHDAY~~!!!!!

JaeKeyKan

2010-01-11T21:55:00.011+08:00

JaeJoong ( DBSK )

+
Key ( SHINee )

=
Kan ( F.Cuz )

These 3 guys' type r quite similar.. as in they hav cool cool looks.. but actually they r very cute... I LIKE this kind of guys~~!!!!! XD
Jaejoong & Key noe how to cook & cooks for their members... soooooo gd~!!!
Kan is new... He rly look like Jaejoong in some angle...!!! Think he will b the NXT popular guy sooner or later......

♥~JaeKeyKan~♥

YAY!!! Finally finish the NIGHTMARE~!!!

2010-01-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

WOOTS!!!

Finally done wif my FYP report!!!
From duno when start doing..until now~!!
Always very reluctant to start doing tis report... always get distracted by many things like FACEBOOK, KPOP, MVs, DRAMAS when i on my laptop... den when i fin doing all this.. den i start the report.. by the time its ardy night time...LOL!!!
Everyday do this report, search for info from journals, kip looking at the computer screen until my eyes very tired and always headache!!! i think i will get LAO HUA very soon!!! Luckily, now it's OVER~~ Finally FINISHED!!!

Now, at least can rest AWHILE.. juz AWHILE, cuz still got other projS coming up...ZZZ !!!
For the time being, i can do the things i wan...!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! i can continue watching my online dramas, mio tv dramas, MVs, practice my electone n oso go out PLAY~~!!!!!!! :)

~~

2010-01-09T19:20:00.002+08:00

ALL THE CONTENT HERE... i hope to kip it within here...
They r juz how i feel at that moment... dun worry too much..

I RLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

2010-01-08T23:02:00.013+08:00

WHY CAN'T U UNDERSTAND ME?
WHY U JUZ DUNO WAD I RLY WAN?
I RLY HAD ENUFF OF THIS!!!!!!!

BURST!!

ONLY ONCE A WK I COME HOME LATE..!!
N THE LATE IS ONLY 1030PM AT MOST, DO U NID TO KIP CALLING ME N THREATENING EVERYTIME ??
N I M ARDY SO OLD ARDY..19!! GOIN TO 20!!! CANT U GIF ME SOME FREEDOM?!!!!!
IT'S RLY TOO MUCH!!!!
I BEAR WIF U FOR VERY LONG ARDY..

I JUZ WAN TO EAT WIF MY FRENS FOR DINNER ONLY.. N IT'S WKEND.. FRI..LAST DAY OF SCH.. JUZ WAN TO RELAX ABIT.. BUT U KIP CALLING ME N RUSHING ME TO GO HOME QUICK!!! DEN I ALWAYS HAV TO RUSH TO TAKE TRANSPORT TO RUSH BCK HOME.. ITS EVERYTIME!!! U NOE TIS IS VERY STRESSFUL.. WHEN I REACHING NEAR HOME.. U STILL KIP CALLING...NON STOP!!!
I TOT TELLING U THE TRUTH, U WILL B MORE UNDERSTANDING...BUT NO!!! U R STILL SO UNREASONABLE! I ONLY GO AMK N EAT.. U SAY: NID GO SO FAR TO EAT MEH? GO CCK EAT CAN ARDY WAD...?!! DONT COM BCK, I WILL LOCK THE DOOR!!" ZZZ!!! EVERYDAY EAT AT THE SAME PLCE.. HOW BORING IS TAT...??

I ARDY SO STRESSED UP IN SCH; FOR FYP, CLINICS & OTHER PROJS... I JUZ WAN TO RELAX ABIT WIF MY FRENS... YET U KIP STRESSING ME TO COM HOME... U NOE HOW IRRITATING IS TAT?? U JUZ DUN UNDERSTAND ME. NOW GOING HOME, BCOM SO STRESS!!! U MAKE ME DUN WAN TO GO HOME! Y CANT U JUZ LET ME GO OUTSIDE WIF MY FRENS...NOT AS IF LIKE I NOT COMING HOME...AT LEAST WIF FRENS, I CAN CHAT WIF THEM N RELIEF SOME STRESS... BUT Y MUZ U KIP GIVING ME TIS UNNECESSARY STRESS???????? WHY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
SINCE U ALWAYS WORK, CANT B AT HOME TO ACCOMPANY ME.. AT LEAST I CAN B WIF MY FRENS, DEN I WONT FEEL SO LONELY. BUT U JUZ DUN UNDERSTAND.. TELL U THE TRUTH.. U OSO DOUBT ME... DEN MUZWHILE LIE TO U RITE?
IMAGINE ARDY SO MUCH STRESS IN SCH.. NOW AT HOME STILL GOT ANOTHER STRESS... DUNO HOW CAN I COOP IT... DUN FORCE ME TO LEAVE THE HSE!!!
I RLY HATE TIS!!!!!!!!!!

SOMETIMES, I WISH TAT I CAN B LIKE AH PEI, JUZ LEAVE TIS WORLD SUDDENLY...Y DUN BRING ME ALONG? OR RATHER REPLACE HER... LEAVE TIS WORLD. UNTIL NOW, I STILL DUN UNDERSTAND Y SUCH A GOOD GIRL WILL LEAVE THE WORLD SO EARLY. SHD LET ME TIS BAD PERSON TO LEAVE 1ST.. N NOT HER. BCUZ SHE NOES HOW TO CARE ABT PPLE.. SWEET TO PPLE..SO MANY PPLE LIKE HER, SO MANY PPLE WAN HER TO B ALIVE... BUT ME, I TREAT PPLE BADLY N COLDLY.. I DUN CARE ABT PPLE..I M SELFISH..IM A VERY BAD PERSON, BCUZ HER DEATH IS MAINLY CAUSED BY ME.. I SHDN'T HAV INTRO HER TO PLAY ONLINE GAMES.. I SHD HAV TELL HER TO STUDY HARD...SINCE SHE ONLY LISTEN TO MY WORDS MOST..BUT I DIN.... IM TO B BLAMED.. I DIN CARE FOR HER WHEN SHES ALIVE... SHE UNDERSTANDS ME THE MOST!! MORE THAN MY PARENTS!! SHE NOES WAD I WAN.. BUT NOW, I LOST HER... LOST SOMEONE WHO DEEPLY UNDERSTANDS ME N CARES FOR ME N NOES HOW TO CHEER ME UP WHEN IM DOWN.....NOW DEN I NOE TAT HOW IMPT IS SHE TO ME... SHE IS ALWAYS A CHEERFUL GIRL, DIN C HER SAD B4.. IF SAD..JUZ FOR FEW MINS.. TATS Y AFTER SHES GONE..I TRIED TO B HAPPY, TRIED TO B CHEERFUL.. HONESTLY, I JUZ DUN FEEL AS HAPPY AS B4... EVERYTHING BCOM NOT SO IMPT ANYMORE... EXCEPT MY FAMILY...I PUT MY FAMILY AS PRIOR IN MY LIFE SINCE THEN... BUT THEY DUN UNDERSTAND ME.. WADS THE POINT??
I DUN CARE IF OTHERS UNDERSTAND ME ANOT... I RLY DUN CARE ANYMORE.. WAD OTHERS THINK OF ME... I DUN GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE..DUN UNDERSTAND Y IM LIKE TAT, UR BUSINESS!!BCUZ I NOE... NOBODY WILL RLY UNDERSTAND ME...EXCEPT HER.

水瓶座

2010-01-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

My horoscope: 水瓶座 Aquarius

優點：求新求變，好奇心強，博愛，有遠見

缺點：多變，叛逆，倔強，自我中心

特質：極富革新精神，具有獨特的個性，有著超前的思想，是新思想的開拓者。聰穎脫俗，常有奇異的想法，不按牌理出牌。

Quite true....

Oh no!!

2010-01-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

My eyes hav NEOVAS!!!

DOTS DOTS DOTS.............

X.X DEAD~

ECP~!!

2010-01-03T19:52:00.004+08:00

Went to ECP today!!

So much FYP work to do this holiday... so stressed up during this holiday..
Luckily hav the chance to go to ECP in this holiday, during the last day of holiday, to relax abit...
Wanted to go ECP for very long ardy!!
Go there 吹风, cycle....Got sunburn again..=.= ROASTED!! always get sunburnt after goin to ECP... now my skin very HOT~!!!! X.X
But good thing is tried out 1 new THING!!

THIS:

Quite FUN, but very tiring after some time of riding...

ECP got so many new things to try out....!!!

p.s CATHERINE, nxt time lets go try out these stuffs ~!!!

没时间...

2010-01-02T16:47:00.002+08:00

我闷得受不了,

什么也做不好,

最近的生活方式太无聊!!!

为什么太多时间在抱歉,

太少时间在缠绵,

太多时间在抱怨,

太少时间值得去怀念......

没时间想昨天
没时间我没时间~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!! X.X

Before 2009 ends...

2009-12-31T21:22:00.012+08:00

Before 2009 ends.. lets flashback...

FEW yrs back, when i was still so CUTE & ADORABLE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ XD

here's my primary sch pic....

...& my secondary sch pic

Can find me in both pics???
My primary sch.. is all girls sch...
My secondary sch.. to us,everyday it's like Chinese New Year!!! LOLS!! cuz our uniform is RED~~!! everyday wear RED ..so attract attention rite...but oso the MOST unique uniform..cuz only my sch's uniform is RED & BLACK~ ONE & ONLY in SINGAPORE~~!!! woots~!!

So fast.. now i had graduated from both schs..
Very soon(few more mths), will b Poly...
Time flies REAL fast~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Conclude my 2009

2009-12-31T20:00:00.003+08:00

Woots~~ in few hrs time.. a new yr will begin~!!
Time to say Good-Bye to 2009 & Welcom to 2010!

Rly fast.. 1 yrs juz finish like tat...
What hav i done in this 1 yr???
===Flashback===
This yr is rly a BUSY yr.. so many sch work to do...
FYP is one of the most HEADACHE thing to do... Start from MAY till now... Start from recuiting subjects.. till them coming for visits.. den finish their visits for all 5mths.. till now doing write up... it's like nv ending... When 2010 starts..FYP still continues to b the MAJOR headache!!! X.X

But this yr i meet alot of new ppl.. n oso made new frens...
Make alot of frens from ITP at Jurong Point...
Den thru FYP, noe alot of new ppl... n make frens wif some of them... n oso came back in contact wif pri sch fren..=)

This yr another BIG thing will b goin to India for OITP... a not bad experience..since I wont go India in my life.. having this rare opportunity to see whats like in India..rly made me OPENED-EYE..Not only gain my clinical skills..but oso my own life experience!

This yr another BIG change is i cut away my long hair & dye hair!!! Cut away my long hair tat i hav grow for ard 4yrs!! HAHA!! crazy rite? too tired of the hairstyle.. den when to dye hair.. dye hair can rly get addicted too.. this yr i dyed twice ardy!!! 2nd time dye, is less than 6mths from the 1st dye... More crazy~!! actually wanted to dye again... "ash" colour from liese, lastest japan hair dye..but i found from internet tat ..dye too much will hav cancer!! O.O!!n those who always stay up late ..dun dye better... O.O!!!!! Think i dun dye 1st.. wait for awhile den dye.. XD

Overall..this yr is not a very smooth yr for me.... alot of things happened... things as in "people with people relation". Some hiccups here n there.. Make everything bcom complicated... im thinking...such problems din happened before in my life.. 1st time experiencing this kind of problem... if this yr we din change class.. mayb such things wont happen? having a new person interfering the usual simple life... only messed up my life...making my simple life to bcom complicated! Why cant u b simple.. n dun mess up things between ppl? Isit so gd to complain abt ppl so much at the back when they r ardy ur frens or even ur gd fren? Dun com n tell me this tell me tat.. i m a very easily persuaded person.. u will only confuse me.. n make me do the wrong decisions n wrong things... ZZZ.. Make me made a BIG mistake this yr.. n oso made me regret.. So nxt yr..pls leave me alone.. stop messing up my life anymore!!!

Nxt yr = new yr = new beginning...
Hope nxt yr everything will b smooth.. esp. my FYP!!! X.X

Goodbye 2009!

LAST wk of holiday~!!

2009-12-27T04:13:00.003+08:00

OMG~~ so fast, 2 wks of holiday hav past....

This 2 wks.. did almost nth tat i rly wanted to do....
8 out of the 10 wkdays.. went back to sch.. 2days for tat very boring sch trips.. n the rest for FYP n other stuffs....
Best part is having to watch so many movies in 1 goal~~!!!
Den christmas celebration...

It's only todae tat i finally did sth tat i wanted to do most!!! Playing wif my electone!! so long din play ardy!! woots~~ fingers abit not working ... oso tried to play ShinEE's stand by me.. but only the 1st pg...LOL~~

Now only left LAST wk of holiday liao~~~ OMG~~~~~~~
dun wan to waste my LAST wk!!!
dun wan to live the wk so aimlessly~~!!!
so many things still not done yet~~~ X_X
Few plces haven go yet... wan to go some plces eg. ECP~~~, or go eat sth rly NICE~~~~!!!!

Nid to start doing stuffs soonnnnnnnnnnn... if not when sch reopen.. time will not b enuff!!!! @.@!!!

Before all these nightmares happen... muz go enjoy life 1st!!!

Merry Merry Christmas!!

2009-12-25T23:15:00.008+08:00

Today is more like a family gathering than a Christmas celebration~!!

So long din c tat 3 ah songssssssssss... all changed so much!!!
Took lots of pics... n as usual got a gift from xiao gu... as usual.. the gift is quite expensive!! @.@

It's quite a WARM Christmas celebration, this year!
See u guys again NEXT year... which is only 6 days more~!!!

NEOprints!

2009-12-24T23:18:00.005+08:00

WOOTS~~
Taking neoprints can get addicted!
Very long nv take neoprints ardy~!!

Went to take todae wif my cousin!!so fun yet EXPENSIVE!!!X_X

The backgrounds all so nice!
Now can even change ur hair and shirt colour~!!!
So many cute graphics to add in to the neoprints..but not enuff time to edit fin all!! ZZZ

Now my new hobby is..taking neoprints...LOLS!!! ( SOMEONE owe me this sia... from b4 i go india till i com bck ... !! Better kip ur promise hor!!!! )

2 different machines... different effect... different COST!!

UNREASONABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

ZZZ!!!!!

QI SI REN~~~~~~~~~!!!

GOT NAGGED again~!!!!!!!!! X_X

Juz came home 10mins before 10pm... SHE jiu nag nag nag~!!!!
Omg lo!!! juz 950pm.. still so early~~~ i ardy make an effort to go home early liao lo~~~~!!! SHE can nag me say.. " u purposely dun wan com home isit..., dun com home, i going to sell the hse..." ZZZZZZ!!!!!!!! PISSED PISSED PISSED!!!! got so YAN ZHONG mah!!!! sell hse.=.=!!!! WT~~~~~~~~~~

im so OLD ardy.. cant juz let me hav some freedom n com home anytime i wan?!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
i oso not goin out wif any bad ppl~~~ frens onli.. n is mostly GIRL frens.. not GUYS~!!!!
GOT WRONG MEH~!!!!???
Everyone has their limits...Force me too much.. i will REBEL~!!!! ZZZ!!!!

Movies Mania

2009-12-20T20:21:00.005+08:00

This 2 days i watched 7 movies online!!!

So shuang!!!

I like these 3 movies most:

1st: Twilight!!!

so nice man!!! soo cool~~!!!
Goin to go cinema to watch Twilight New Moon!!! YAY!!

2nd: 恋空 ( Sky Of Love )

A simple love story...
Sad ending...
Made me cried at the end...

The actor (三浦春馬) inside..looked abit like Jaejoong!!! esp when he dyed his hair.. juz the same as Jaejoong who oso dyed tis colour last time.. so coincidental tat tis guy in the show oso named HERO!!! LOL~~~

3rd: My Sister's Keeper

WOW~~ tis show soo touching~~!!!
Made me cry alot during this movie~!!!
So saddening...
Worth watching~~~

Now my new interest is watching movies; watch movies online is the BEST cuz its FREE~~!!! XD

so CUTE~~~~~~~~!!!

2009-12-17T00:39:00.003+08:00

This boy so cute~~!!!
Dance my fav RING DING DONG~~!!!!
Esp. the ring ding dong part...sooo cute~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i like~~~~~~ =)

Trapped feeling

2009-12-14T12:40:00.003+08:00

Holiday now!!!

But how com there r still so MANY work to do...?!!!!

Can't even relax after tests.....=.=|||

Have to start work straight after tests~~~~~~

Have to read journalssssssss after journalsssssss... Tests read journals, FYP oso read journals...ZZZ!!! rly HATE to read journals!!! words so small.. so many pages....X.X

Besides FYP, still have another 2 projs queuing up......!!!

Holiday, can't do the things i wan~~!!! Feel like a bird trapped in a cage... wan fly out the cage for freedom..but CAN'T..cuz the cage is LOCKED~!! =(

Trapped feeling

Rly nid to find some time ..go ECP or somewhr wif beach..to relax abit...

2 more mths~~~~~~~~~~

2009-12-12T19:49:00.003+08:00

Exactly 2 more mths ...to my BIRTHDAY!!!

Also means I goin to leave the TENTH family.. & breaking through the TWENTIETH family..=.=|||

So FASTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~~~~~~~

im getting OLDERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.........................

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

So, I plan to do something CRAZY before i turn 20!!!!!!!!!

Wait & c......................

Keep me in deep thoughts...

2009-12-04T20:57:00.005+08:00

After today... rly made me think alot...

1st; sometimes fail is not rly a bad thing... it is wad u learn from ur weakness tat let u gain knowledge.. even if everytime u got alot of excellents but doesnt noe whr u r weak in, it's oso useless... cuz u dun learn anything...Todae learnt alot of things from her... her words like suddenly made me wake up... all tis while, wad m i doing?? all doing the wrong things...?? going to graduate in few mths time... now den i wake up??

2nd; her words oso made me more n more clear that my interest is rly not in this course...! heart not even in... no wonder kip forgetting things related to tis course... always very reluctant to do all the work from tis course... keep dragging n dragging... but if its drawing or music.. i will do it immediately.. so much different...juz bcuz i have the interest in these... Now made me more reluctant to sign up for this course uni... X.X! bcuz go uni = study another 2 yrs of this course = can DIE!!!, cuz it will b more difficult than now... now ardy so difficult n stress.. another 2yrs??!!!?? X_X!!! i dun wan..but my mama insist tat i MUST join the uni...=.=!!!

Few more mths to graduation... if time can rewind, i won't choose this course...!! won't even put it in my list... shd'nt have put it as my 1st choice... X_X

Today rly made my think alot... Rly thx to her.. for pointing out so many things... So much to learn from her.... Rly look up to her... !!! =)

I want PIG-RABBIT!!

2009-12-03T20:33:00.004+08:00

Pig-Rabbit from the drama.. "You're beautiful"

So cute leh.... i want~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!

Life is so short.......

2009-11-27T21:39:00.006+08:00

3yrs past...

But the pain is still as fresh as 27/11/06... the day whr sadness came in... heartbroken

Tried very hard to forget abt tat day.. wish it nv happened.. wish its only a dream... wish everything return to normal.. wish u are still around.. wish u didnt go.......... But everything is a fact... the day still remained so clearly in my mind...Juz like a nightmare to me..... tears juz wont stop flowing.. juz duno how to say... found tis quote which describe very well how i feel..:

3yrs w.o u... i tried to b strong... tried to b as happy as b4..... but its hard... rly hard... tears will juz drop everytime i watch shows wif ppl dying...

someone who understands me most...who i can lean on..who cares for me most.......who treat me so gd... gif me watever i wan...shares the same interests as me..... always accompany me..... suddenly in 1 night disappeared from my life... Din even hav the time to cherish the person... din even treat her gd... din gif her bck enough care..... din hav chance to thank her.....but instead i treat other ppl so gd... when they dun even appreciate......i m rly sry... sry sry sry sry sry...it's all my fault... regret for my whole life oso no use ardy...... y muz it always when u lost some1..den u realised how impt they r actually to u.................................

After tis incident...make me understand some things... From now, only those tat cares for me...worth me treating them gd....i will only cherish those who rly treat me gd... those who dun even appreciate...i will treat them coldly... i wont even want to my waste time on them... not worth....bcuz life is so short... dun hav so much time to waste on those kind of ppl... i dun wan to hav regrets anymore... who noes...todae i might b here... the nxt day..i might gone...

Rest in peace, my angel, Ah pei.........

[06/11/92 ~ 27/11/09]

Still say out...

2009-11-25T21:37:00.003+08:00

Feel much better after i say out...

Relief at least...

if not like sth stuck at mouth..duno wan to say anot..

now at least say out...

Ardy knew the outcome... as wad i hav expected... so dun feel anything... haha

thou knew the outcome, but i still say out... is bcuz of past lesson learnt... will blog abt it 2 days later...

But..rly hope all the best to .... ; most imptly is be HAPPY~ =)

Maybe it's time for MIRACLES!!

2009-11-23T21:20:00.001+08:00

Time for Miracles Lyrics

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

Pizza of LOVE

2009-11-23T02:58:00.003+08:00

Finally uploaded tis pic...

Took it few days ago..

Look like a HEART rite??

i arranged de leh...!! Creative rite??

Using pieces of PIZZA tat SOMEBODY sliced for SOMEBODY...

Tis HEART is for the SCANDAL "COUPLE"!! lols~~

Wanted to say out their names lo..BUT... im a GD person..i wont so bad broadcast their names de...(To the SCANDAL "COUPLE": muz THX me ar.. im not greedy la..juz treat me Pizzahut/ Jackplace/Botak Jones/Coffeebean... etc can ardy lo.. XD )

Pizza of LOVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Future contact lens cleaner??

2009-11-23T02:33:00.003+08:00

This is an AUTOMATED contact lens cleaner...whr u put ur lens inside..the machine will wash ur lens; rub & rinse. Den put the lens into the lens case below..

Cool rite? For my grp's proj assignment... We came up wif tis idea... but rly hope very soon will hav tis kind of lens cleaner..save the trouble to rub & rinse lens... save SO much time!!!

Saving lives...

2009-11-22T20:45:00.001+08:00

Just went for Blood donation last wk in my sch...

2nd time donate blood...

Better than 1st time.. tis time din hav blurry vision after donating.. but still hav cold sweat & ear blocked.. but its ok la..

1 person blood can save 3 people... tis yr i donate twice... means i saved 6 people ardy...!!!

1 yr save 6people.. 10yrs save 60people!!! WOOTS!!!

my new aim... every yr donate 2 times....... can save many many many people's lives..!!!

Ans is .... not to say(X.X)

2009-11-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Actually already planned to say it out todae...

Haixxxxxxxxxxxxx.............

but now ... dun nid to say out already...

can swallow the words back ..& kip it inside my heart ...

I will remain silence......

(sometimes dun expect too much..the more u expect, the more disappointed u get.... )

Say or NOT to say?

2009-11-18T21:06:00.002+08:00

Shd i say anot???

Say or not to say???

think thru for so long ardy...

cuz i noe the failure rate is very high... 90% !!!

if rly fail... will b very awkward.... X.X

shd i say??????????????

isit time to say???

Meaningful Quote

2009-11-14T23:33:00.001+08:00

Nice quote from Catherine...

".....life is too short to live with complexities"

True true... live simple is the best~!!

End of the world, NOT

2009-11-13T23:17:00.006+08:00

Watched the movie 2012... very nice!!!

Made me think.....

In the end, i came up wif a conclusion tat is:

It doesn't matter if tml is the end of the world... as long as i m wif the person i love.. no matter live or die.. i m already very contented... =)

Scary~~

2009-11-13T22:42:00.004+08:00

Been observing lately......

More & more clearly recently...... tat some ppl r very SCARY!!

They hav 2 faces... or rather 2 headed snake

Today they can b curse u..scold vulgar at u at ur back...but the nxt day..they still can b so FREN wif u..n smile & joke wif u some more.. how scary is tat....??

Even if u r their frens for 2yrs+, they can still say bad things at ur back... almost every one... they will say their bad things..

Most scary part is tat.. TAT PERSON can b so FREN wif u but in the end switch b close to another person who TAT PERSON curse n scold so much bad things abt her..

It will not b surprise tat TAT PERSON will oso say ur bad things to another ppl...

Haix... tot could trust TAT PERSON...but in the end... X.X

After realising all tis.. i had already slowly fade away each day from TAT PERSON.. in fact more & more FADE tis few days.. im those kind..when i found out tat person is no gd.. i will quickly fade away from them..

Tats really too SCARY to me.. duno how to continue wif TAT PERSON...

can i oso FAKE wif TAT PERSON?? tats too difficult to me... tats y i m behaving very anti-social these few days.. confused .. X_X

To me, i dun nid alot of frens... juz 1 or 2 frens who truly noes & understands me.. tat is enuff...If u r TAT KIND of PERSON.. who always like ACT.. den pls dun get near me.. i dun nid tis kind of ewww fren.. i rather b alone than having tis kind of fren.

In My Own World

很有感触的一首歌。。。

2011's 1ST & NEW POST!!

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PRISON life

IM SUPER BLURRRRRRRRRR~~~

Learnt alot alot.........

"You small kid la..."

BAD day

Terrible HEADACHE!!!

My 1ST PAY!!!

SO TIREDDDDDDDD

GRADUATED!!

TML!!!

SAVE ME OUT OF HERE!!

SBSBSBSBSBSBDL!!!

I'M nobody

ZZZZZZZZ!!

Dislike things...

SBDL!!

Got new plans

Rly shd not have too high expectations...

Feel much more relax...

1st day of work...

TML!!!!!!!!!!

2 more days to REST!!

TML is the DAY!!

1000!!!

OLD already...

Dont't understand...

Spring Clean

Waiting~~

All i want is to have a OVERSEA HOLIDAY!!!!

Awesome wkend with SHINee!!

Fairytales r FAKE....

X promises

Bore, bored, boring......

Before February ends...

SHAGGED!!

PIG-RABBIT arrived in SG!!!

OVER~~!!!!!

FINAL FINAL!!!!

DOTzzz

ONE & ONLY

CNY @ my HOUSE!!

CNY 2010

BLEH~

20 Years!!

Valentine's DAY!!!

.....speechless.....

WOOT!! OPEN EYE~~

SHINee !!!!!!!!!

the PURPLE surprise!!

...

BAD girl

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NO hope alrdy!!

Boring~~~~~~

OMG SHINee!!!

WHY so tired EVERYDAY???

East Scenary

OMG!!!~~ My tooth bcame SO BIG!!!

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else...

Word-Lost

Lovely Bones

TML!!!

Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant

MOVIES again!!!

1more month....

JaeKeyKan

YAY!!! Finally finish the NIGHTMARE~!!!

~~

I RLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!

水瓶座

Oh no!!

ECP~!!

没时间...

Before 2009 ends...

Conclude my 2009

LAST wk of holiday~!!

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